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Nov 2017 · 150
The Night Before
Solaris Lanayru Nov 2017
Midnight moonlight makes its way
Into my room that's full of gloom
Please don't go I want you to stay
By my side as here we lay

On a night like this I'd love to see
The sun and moon happy like me
Because with you here
By my side
I fear nothing
Because I'll be your bride
Nov 2017 · 174
The Lighter Side
Solaris Lanayru Nov 2017
Long ago we let a story unfold
To tell the tale of those who struggle
The broken ones who dwell in darkness
A hero must rise to bring them to life
But who will take on the task?

Let it be you who dwells in the dark
To free your kind from the chains of depression
Let it be you who yearns for the light
To break free and return to life

Let it be you
Nov 2017 · 163
Am I Worth It?
Solaris Lanayru Nov 2017
Frozen, cold, frigid, and still
My heart is solid
Say what you will

I know I'm broken
I know I can't love myself
You still see light in me
Yet I see nothing else

You loved me when I couldn't love myself
That is what makes you unique
So many have given up
And my world was looking bleak

Dripping down like misty rain
My tears fall down
Each one filled with pain

No one has ever looked at me
The way that you do
That smile of yours
And those vibrant eyes so blue
I can't look away
Because I'm so in love with you
Oct 2017 · 154
Struggle
Solaris Lanayru Oct 2017
Something in the way you smile
Reflects the way you walked those miles
One thousand plus from there to here
I'm glad that you showed no fear

I love my life the way it is
All the pieces fit like his
The **** we've been through makes us stronger
I hope that I will be yours for longer

Longer than the sun is bright
I hope that we resolve each fight
And learn to love each other more
I will always treasure you to my core
He really did walk all the way from Maine to here. With a few rides and stops along the way. He's been through a lot and so have I....
Oct 2017 · 155
Strength in Love
Solaris Lanayru Oct 2017
Every time I see you
My words melt away
Leaving only my smile
You know what I'd say

I'd tell you I love you
But that's not enough
The way I latch onto you
Shows we're quite tough

It's a bear hug of sorts
Hard to break free
But with all that love
You'll understand, see?
Oct 2017 · 229
2020
Solaris Lanayru Oct 2017
I've set a goal
To reach a dream
By 2020
I wish to gleam

I'll smile bright
As I walk down that aisle
Tears of joy
Won't stop my smile

As I reach the front
Looking at you
All I see
Are vibrant hues

Love is tricky
Yes it is
But knowing this
I will still be his
Hm.....$600....for a wedding in Vegas.....at a taco bell lol
Oct 2017 · 168
Warm and Fuzzy
Solaris Lanayru Oct 2017
When snow falls like angel dust
And the wind blows frigid air
A perfect winter scene tonight
Would you follow me please?

Come with me and let's go inside
Where there's a warm toasty fire
We'll sit and warm our hands a bit
Until you suddenly put yours in mine

You raise them to your lips and kiss
It feels nice and warm
I throw my arms around you then
And now I'll never let go
Oct 2017 · 280
The Way to Say...
Solaris Lanayru Oct 2017
Words are tricky
Use them wisely
I say hello
You say goodbye
When will our words
Reach the sky?
And intertwine
Like a graceful dance
Use your words now
It's your final chance
I say hello
You say it too
Now I know
You've gotten the clue
I say I love you
You say why's that?
I look to the sky
And let out a simple laugh
You're kind and smart
And gentle and strong
What do you think?
Am I actually wrong?
I turn to your eyes
So vibrant and blue
All I want now
Is to spend time with you
For Dave
Sep 2017 · 506
The Way You Love Me
Solaris Lanayru Sep 2017
I love the way you look at me
With that sparkle in your eyes
The way you love me they still can't see
How hard you really try
You're trying, I know
And I love you for you
I love you more than you will ever know
And I hope one day you'll feel it too
Sep 2017 · 246
Goodbye
Solaris Lanayru Sep 2017
I'm sorry I couldn't be better
I'm sorry it didn't work out
Those words you say so confidently
Breaks my heart in two
I wish I could have stopped you
I wish I would've kissed you goodbye
I don't regret meeting you
I don't regret loving you
I just wish you'd stay
I never wanted this
You didn't either
But you still left
And I'll never forget you
Sep 2017 · 249
Hurtful
Solaris Lanayru Sep 2017
It hurts and hurts and always will
I begged and pleaded "please don't go"
And yet you still have left me
And I am broken once more

I loved and loved and lost you
I couldn't make you stay
But that's ok for there will be a day
I find happiness in something else
Sep 2017 · 336
In the Mirror
Solaris Lanayru Sep 2017
I hate the way you look at me
Cold eyes that stare back
Nothing seems more distant
Than the stone cold stare from your soul, black

Get the hell away from me
The lies you've told tear into my skin
There is no good left in this world
All that's left is pure and evil sin

All the tears and all the blood
You've spilled enough already
I can no longer stand on my own
I feel very weak and unsteady

Will the light never shine again?
Will I ever get to see my own eyes?
The cold dark eyes that stare back at me
They're just an illusion, all lies
Aug 2017 · 295
Burn in Hell
Solaris Lanayru Aug 2017
I can't stand those people
Who don't know when to stop
Or even when not to start at all
I can't contain my anger
As I hit the keys to type
How dare you think to speak to me as if you know me well
I sure hope that all of you simply burn in Hell
Note to self: never enter a chat room again. NEVER.
Aug 2017 · 259
I Choose You
Solaris Lanayru Aug 2017
So many people in this world
So many guys to choose from
I turn and look all around
But something's missing and can't be found
I wander the streets in search of love
A love like no other I felt before
I bumped into you by chance online
You used a witty pick up line
And from the start I fell in love
A love I had never felt before
You picked up the pieces of my heart
I chose you from the start
To be the one that makes me smile
As I look at my phone and walk into a pole
Yes, a pole, we're idiots in a way
"But your my idiot" is what I hear you say
You're the best a girl could hope for
I've finally found what I've been seeking all along
I love you and you love me too
This is why I choose you
For Dave, my special idiot <3
Aug 2017 · 251
Trial of Love
Solaris Lanayru Aug 2017
From dawn to dusk
The sun rises and falls
Just let the wind
Take care of it all
My love is pure
Like a shining lake
For you I'd do anything
It's a promise I'll make
So don't you worry
For this is simply a trial
To see if one day
I'd be walking down that aisle
Aug 2017 · 399
My Love For You
Solaris Lanayru Aug 2017
On your deepest darkest days
Remember the tone of my voice
So gentle, kind, and loving
I am your only choice
For the world has granted you to me
and my love for you is strong
Don't ever leave and let me be
For I will tell you it is wrong
I met you by chance and loved what I got
You're the perfect fit for me
Because you're everything I love and unfaithful you are not
You're all I want to see
I love you even when I'm mad
Nothing stands in my way
I love you even when I'm sad
And I hope it always stays this way
For Dave <3
Jul 2017 · 655
Despair
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
She looked into his eyes
And saw nothing
Not even a trace
Love was nonexistent
And tears rolled down her face
Do I dare believe in love she said
Do I dare be fooled by temptation?
No one will ever know
The tragedy of her situation
Jul 2017 · 244
Hourglass of Life
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
If a little bit of you dies each day
I wonder how long you'll live
How much of you is left?
How is it that you keep going?
The sand runs quicker than you think
You don't have much left
Though you gain sand from happiness
But that itself is scarce
So what will you do?
Will you waste away?
Or will you live to see another day?
Jul 2017 · 215
Adulthood
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
I'm out on my own
Been kicked out for a while
No one seems to remember my smile
Of when I was a happy girl
Without anything to stress about  
But now I'm drowning in my own self doubt

"Live on your own!" they said
"It will be fun!" they said.
I think I'd rather just stay in bed...
And cry like there's no tomorrow
So I can slowly wash away the sorrow

Living alone is not what they say...
I cry like a child every day.
What's worse is that I'm an adult these days
And acting like a child won't get you paid.
It's like crossing the street and getting hit by an airplane...
Jul 2017 · 144
Rent
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
Do I really want to go?
Do I really want to stay?
It really is Hell for me either way.
I live alone and it's sad sometimes...
The darkness is scary even with the light.
But what other place can I afford to go?
I'm broke as dirt and I don't even know
Who will offer a place to stay
To someone who can only pay
A little here and a little there
If this can't be so then I don't know where.
Where will I go?
What will I do?
I really just want to spend time with you...
It's sad when you think $20 is a lot of money...
Jul 2017 · 231
Breath of the Wild
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
As the sun rises over snow-peaked tops
And the moon sinks beneath the vast ocean
Adventure awaits for those who seek it
A treasure hides sealed away in a forgotten place
A sword that rests in stone
To only be pulled when the hero has regained his strength
For a deep century sleep has weakened his body
And wipes his memory clean
All but his name
The princess awaits his return
She's trapped in the castle
Tied to the task of keeping evil at bay
But she can not hold it forever
For the calamity with strike again someday
And the hero must be ready
Based on one of my favorite games of all time, The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
Jul 2017 · 335
Look Through My Eyes
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
Can I borrow your eyes for a bit
To see the world as you do?
It's not fair that you're so happy
When your world is falling apart
How can you smile as  they all walk away?
Your family?
Your friends?
Your love?
How can you live like that?

With no emotion left to feel
The world turns a dark gray
I see it through your eyes
A monochrome world
With nothing left to feel
Yet you smile bright...
Is it because you know?
Is it because you know your time is up soon?
Either way whether you know it or not
This view of yours makes me want to cry
Jul 2017 · 222
My Life
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
Isn't it sad when you don't have a best friend?
Isn't it sad when you don't have friends?
Isn't it sad when your broke?
Isn't it sad when you tried?
Isn't it sad when you ultimately fail?
Isn't it sad when you have such a dream that you most likely won't achieve?
Isn't it sad when no one notices you anymore?
Isn't it sad when your family kicks you out?
Isn't it sad when you're almost homeless?
Isn't it sad that you have to write out what ***** the most in your life?
But one thing is certain...
Isn't it great when someone loves you and everything about you even when you don't?
Yeah...that feels nice.
Jul 2017 · 207
A Win in Ohio
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
Congratulations to my little bro
Who's a master in the sport of volleyball
All that time and effort you've spent
Has paid off in the end
Mom is proud and so is dad
But so is your sister too
Good job earning that medal
And I hope you had fun
You and your teammates have had a good run
My brother is the libero for his volleyball team. He had to go to Ohio for a tournament. His team tied for bronze and I'm very proud of him! He was even on Web TV!
Jul 2017 · 399
Eye Contact
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
That look in your eyes
Tells me all I need to know
The way you feel
Is written right there
And this is why
I close my eyes
And only open them
To stare into yours
I have terrible eye contact with people. However, there is one person I can stare at all day.
Jul 2017 · 324
Laugh at Your Ex
Solaris Lanayru Jul 2017
Don't ever look back on the mistakes you made
You've already learned your lesson
Don't dwell on those people who you once loved
It will only bring sorrow and pain

But what if those people were stupid as hell
And never deserved your love?
You can laugh at them now
As they trip and fall
Into a pit of pure comedy

Their life is a sad joke
And they'll never get far
Just because the way that they are
They're hopeless

I like to laugh a little sometimes
At the lives of each of them
They stumble and fall ad don't know why
Those stupid people I used to trust

But now as I can laugh about it
I'm sure they can only regret it
Although it doesn't matter anymore
Because now I am free
Jun 2017 · 314
Wanting More
Solaris Lanayru Jun 2017
The darkness grips my shoulders
The silence claws at my skin
What am I to do with such a broken soul?
Broken not once but many times
By the people I thought would care
But in truth we are simply alone
No one feels like me
No one feels love the way I do
No one knows the darkness that suffocates me
And in turn I don't know you
Your smile is warm but you're breaking inside
You're trying to hide the scars on your soul
But even then those scars bleed through I can see
And your laughter feels hollow as well
Tell me, do you want to know...
Do you want to know what the light feels like?
Do want to dance in the sun?
Do you want to feel the smoothness
Of the sand between your toes?
Tell me, do you wish sometimes....
Do you wish that you could be happy?
Do you wish that you had friends?
Do you wish you had a lover
Who so easily could mend?
They could mend the gashes in your heart
The slashes left by those that you loved
They could heal you bit by bit
But only if you try
Only if you leave behind
The darkness that you love so much
Only if you leave behind
Those hopeless wants you clutch
So leave it all
Leave it all behind
And open your eyes
To a brand new day
Jun 2017 · 237
Stormy Times
Solaris Lanayru Jun 2017
Staring out the open window
Feeling the breeze whip through my hair
Lightning strikes again and again
But the rain feels so pleasant
The wind howls through the trees
As I sit there on my knees
Begging the world to please
Please love one another
And stop the ridiculous waves of hate
I can sense dark times ahead if the world continues on its spiral downward. A world full of hate like this needs a change for the good of us all.
Jun 2017 · 382
A Simple Request
Solaris Lanayru Jun 2017
Painful tears drip down my face
Like rain gently sliding off the leaves
There is no hope left, not even a trace
But to you I beg and plead
Will you take my heart
And end my pain?
I've fallen apart
And the others are to blame
Please love me with all your soul
For this broken one feels very cold
And as the future looks dark and hazed
At least with you my soul can be saved
May 2017 · 417
That One Ex
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Can I see you
Just one last time
Long enough
To tell you how I feel
...
Heh this is great
Here you are
Here I am
You think I'm going to say
"I love you"
Why should I say that
If every time I've said it before
All you did was ignore
Why should I love you?
...
Tell me...
You never cared did you?
You lured me in
Only to cast me aside
After you've had your fun
You're worth nothing to me
As I was worthless to you
...
All I have is hate and regret
Not a bit of any love left
I spent time...money...and now
I don't have any ***** to give anymore
May 2017 · 367
InSiDe My MiNd
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
H-E-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
Am I the only one?
It's easy to fake a smile
When you've been doing it for a while
People don't care
If all you do is stare
Into nothing but a dark void
May 2017 · 237
Dusk
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Stars shine bright in a velvet sea
Darkness engulfs the world
The moon's gentle glow casts over me
And soon it starts to snow
Lovely isn't it?
The beauty of night
Gentle breeze to whisk away
All your tears and fright
May 2017 · 558
Move On
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
He's better off with a prettier girl
One who isn't me
I hope she takes good care of him
There's plenty of fish in the sea
May 2017 · 350
So That's Why...
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Ever wondered why they call it
A crush?
Ever wondered why it's so hard
To get them to notice you?
It's called a crush...
Because you never know
They could like you too
But you'd never know
It's scary to think about
The future with them
All the possibilities
Are just overwhelming
You could be friend zoned
Or forgotten or ditched
And if things go well for a while
You could be left broken hearted
I hate crushes
The agonizing pain
Of your love not being returned
Until you tell them
But when you tell them
You hold your breath
Scared of the outcome
And when all they say is
"I don't know how I feel"
It's not a definite no
But it's still disappointing
True story...
May 2017 · 304
How Will I know?
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
How can you tell
If they're the right one for you?
How will I know
When my dreams have come true?
When I met you
My world grew bright
But there's still darkness
Behind all the light
I know I know
I'm going fast
But I'm just scared
I have a darkened past
If you just give me a chance
Maybe we'll both succeed
Although I'm thinking too fast
Can you please just take the lead?
I'm not sure how all this works
How am I supposed to know?
I've never felt a crush like this
It's purer than soft white snow
All I can do is hope for the best
Please I want you by my side
Although it's all too soon they say
I have a feeling all that's a lie
May 2017 · 334
Flying Colors
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
The colors of the world today
I wonder which is yours
So many colors to choose from
But sadly it can't be done
You're just not able to choose a color
It's chosen just for you
Whatever the best fit is
That color that says it all
So try your best to shape that color
Into a radiant vibrant hue
Like flowers dipped into dyed water
We too can become more vivid
Are you a soft gentle pastel color?
Or perhaps a bright neon shade?
You could be a deep dark velvet dye
Something so breathtakingly pure
That it's been perfected over the years
To match the inner you
As people change
Colors shift
And no one is the same
May 2017 · 806
Heavy Silence
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
The night is silent
Not a sound goes around
The air is still
I can hear my heart pound
Thoughts of you come rushing through
Carefully easing the stress
Only you are in my mind
For once it's not a mess
I close my eyes and try to sleep
The silence is too thick
For all the feelings that I get
They simply just won't click
It's 2 am and I can't sleep. This is why you shouldn't drink Vietnamese iced coffee at 3pm!
May 2017 · 432
Hopeful Dream
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Although I've only met you once
I can't stop this feeling inside
What it is I just can't tell
But it's all over my mind
You're in my thoughts every day
From dawn to dusk you're there
Hidden within my thoughts
It's a feeling I just can't bear
I hope I don't mess up again
I really like you a ton
I hope we meet again sometime
Under a beautiful dazzling sun
Your compliments warm my heart
A feeling so nice and pure
You're sincere and genuine
Of this I'm pretty sure
I hope with time you feel it too
Maybe my dream will come true
My dream is a secret ok?
I'm not even sharing a clue
But one day when I achieve my dream
You will finally know my goal
On that day I'll be yours
And happiness will fill our souls
May 2017 · 521
Crush
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
I love the way he talks to me
In a gentle loving tone
Though I don't know much about him
I just hate being alone
So maybe one day
If things go well
Maybe I'll find the one
And I hope he treats me well
May 2017 · 299
Empty Call
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
When I ask for help
Who will come?
My head is filled with darkness
The fog is just too thick
Where am I now?
Nothing seems to click
The whispered voices
Of the thoughts I bear
Torment me to tears
Even then, no one cares
When I ask for help
Who will come?
No one has come
So now I am done
May 2017 · 511
Loveless
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Why can't I be the one
To live and love and learn
To live a life of happiness
Of love that will always burn
Why can't I be someone
Attractive in many ways
Why must I live alone
And suffer darker days
Why can't I love someone
Who loves me just the same
I know I'm not worthy
And it's really quite a shame
Why can't they accept me
For who I really am
Just a little hint of care
And the world wouldn't be so bland
May 2017 · 495
Never Again
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Your touch heals every broken bit
But I will never heal
For you have left without a word
And I am forced to kneel
And beg to the skies
For you to be mine
Once again I sit and cry
I can't imagine a world
Without you
I can only die inside
Nothing lasts forever
People come and go
Yet you were special
And I hope you know
That never again
Will I feel your touch
Your gentle arms around me
Never again will I hurt this much
For you have made me emotionless
The hurt that lasts from losing you
Will be the last emotion I feel
The only emotion to rage on and on
And never again will it stop
May 2017 · 371
Depression
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Colder than ice
She shivers in the dark
The darkness in which she resides
She can't escape the horrors
Of everything in her mind
The darkness that she created once
It only grows and grows
And somehow she thought that this
Is what she wanted all along
She slips silently into a darker world
With every passing minute
And even though she reaches out
No one can hear her scream
This is what depression feels like to me.
May 2017 · 311
Through My Eyes
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Windows left open wide
That can only see a dream
A dreamy world where all is fine
No sorrow or hate in sight
A world in which everyone
Is free to do as they wish
For only good can thrive here
In a world such as this
May 2017 · 233
Call Me Crazy
Solaris Lanayru May 2017
Call me crazy, but I love to write
About the things I wish I had
A love like no other to hold on to so tight
But only to let go in the end
People come and go all the time
Friends only last a short while
All I want is to find a person
Who is worthy of my friendship
A friend like no other
One who will stay
One who will support me in my darkest days
Is it so wrong to have these wants?
Call me crazy, but I think I'm alone

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