I've loved the wrong people
But I've loved them right
I've learned how to love
The people I shouldn't have
I've given up my heart
I've shown up my art
Expected what they couldn't give
But I've done it right
I've loved purely and bravely
But the direction was misguided
But I can't help to fanthom
That maybe one day
The right person will show
And I won't love him right.

you left me
two years ago

what made you change your mind?
i look back at all our memories
how happy we were
and how our love seemed perfect
then suddenly you told me
that your feelings faded

years later
i'll admit, i haven't fully gotten over you
but now, i look at you
the person who once loved me
the person who changed her mind
the person who left me

i recall in my brain
the woman i loved
but i look at you now
so much of you has changed

this is not the soul that i used to know
this is not the same person
that i loved two years ago

i knew what you were capable of,
once your lips crashed against mine.

you knew i became deeply attached,
once i figured i’m just a dine and dash.

it’s ridiculous how much i think about you,
definitely in the wrong moments.

it’s heartbreaking how you’ve made me feel blue,
why did i became the chosen?

you took the advantage to mess around,
i kept telling you yet you ignored my sound.

it hurts to see you don’t realize the pain you’ve caused,
after your little game was put on paused.

Im not a poet,
Im just a depressed teenger.
Ill run around the circuit
Until my sweat becomes my armor.

Dont expect much from me,
Im just a socially awkward wreck
The worst card in the deck
Only be remembered as a speck

My ideas are so cliché
That theyve become irrelevant
I always give up midway
And leave myself less confident

But until I find my purpose,
Im just a depressed teenager,
A voiceless individual,
A worthless entity.