my mental health is a balance beam i keep forgetting i'm standing on. sometimes it feels like it's standing on me. i balance perfectly for a moment and suddenly i lose the discipline that got me there. i wish i could spend a few moments enjoying the peace i fight for. uphill battles are always difficult; why does mine have to be invisible too?
i try to make it look like i'm okay but i'm lying and no one sees through the smile and sees that i'm crying i keep pretending that things are fine i can't keep walking this line
is there some way in which the past the present the future are all the same are all wrapped up are all on one line i wrote write will write instead of three separate?
in some ways 4 dimensional space-time says yeah sure that's kinda sorta it:
all the space that exists in this time is simultaneously existing in this time and in this time and in this time
so all the time that exists in this space is perhaps also all simultaneously existing in this space and in this space
but mostly the world looks at me says nah dude you're just insane
I never said I made up my mind, Don’t just assume. I love you, But things just need to be discussed. For I will always be by your side, Don’t let this be goodbye. ***
The phone call didn’t mean anything, I believe you, not them. I always choose you.