I pull up the covers
turn down the light
and hold the poems gently
through the lonely dream filled night

I cannot escape memories
Absence haunts all I do
When eyes close your face is what mind sees
Every place I go there are traces of you

I miss you, I miss my happiness
I miss my life when I was boundless
I miss you, I miss my youthfulness
I miss my past when everything was endless

I am tired, tired of my illnesses
I am tired, tired of this loneliness
My eyes are dry, void of tears;
I am alone, everyone is heartless

I long for the days when I felt beautiful
I long for my dream that was delightful
I miss the smile that brought joy to others;
You all are happy I feel helpless

I miss my kids, I miss my parents
I miss the days when I would meet friends
I am a lonely soul like the prisoners;
Everyone is grown up I am hopeless

I miss you, I miss your memories
I miss you, I miss our love stories
I feel so down, I needed your arms;
Nothing is left to me, I am loveless

my palm remained in your palm

simply, it was blind  luck
great luck

* before becoming literate
intellectualized
we had time,
we had time to cultivate ourselves
on the taste of the stones

When it’s time, you’ll know, i’ll be standing there with a no longer heavy heart, with sparkles in my eyes, my feet barely touching the ground, with nothing above but a beautiful blue sky, i’ve came a long way before, left so many behind, been through a lot, & never gave up. Counted the blessings & lost the count, consistently loved what i do, & went with all of my heart to get what i want, so now i can stand there and be proud of who i’ve become, stand there and finally leave it all behind.

but you can
let her pet y like a stray cat
  enchanted by its power and its sad beauty,
it enters your fur,
lets her shadow fall in your arms, -  wake up,
wake up,

y  adopt her as your muse