Just like the firefly
who was enthralled by the flames
I was undoubtedly drawn to you
Without any second thoughts
You were my favorite kind of escape
The one I sought for endlessly
But you were poison in my veins
You made me do things
heaven would never approve of
and you knew the consequences
So you decided to leave me to die
With the flattery of your words
As you anomalously walk away
From me and my shadows
and I continue to ask myself
Over and over until I fall asleep
Why did you have to go?

"Make new friends"
They said.
Yeah. Right.
So they could leave you
Once you've grown too attached
To the memories
To the promises
To them

It's a special day
For you and I
As you get ready
For the ringing bells
Of the church
And I,
Get ready for my
First day moving on

once in a while
they’ll ask me if i’m over him
then casually shifting the topic
to the new girl
he’s been hanging out with.
Like how she was
the epitome of the girl of his dreams
how she could have made any man
yield to her desires
how he wished I could be more like her
My friends inconsiderably talking about him
while I bite my tongue
hoping they would stop for a second
and think about how much this conversation
kills me more than my vices
He was the best mistake I made
falling for a man who smoked
his dreams to grey

You know what's funny?
When you tell me you love me
But you ****** her anyway

It's 3 am in the morning.
You're either hungry, depressed, *****
or all of the above

I wish right from the start
I've known how ****** up our relationship is
With all the mistakes imprinted on your skin
The bitter taste of your lips
The intoxicating scent of your perfume
How it ***** me up
While your fingers caress my thighs
Confusing me with love and lust
Telling me all about your ****** fantasies
As we try to recreate everything
In your messed up head
Trying to please you
Whether be it in the the most inappropriate places
It doesn't matter
I'm always drunk in the idea of having you
In anyway possible
I want you but you clearly have forgotten
The way you left electricity traveling through my skin
It's unfair to leave this like this
I wake up every morning with a glass of wine
While you wake up with a different chick
Who probably thought you were a cool guy
But in reality, she only knows the wolf in sheep's clothing
She doesn't know the mediocre strings you pull
On a daily basis

The problem with people nowadays
Is they demand too much
a dollar and a daydream nowadays is never enough
Everyone wants to be ******* rich
but they just sit around looking at trees
How the **** can that happen
I see virgins wishing they were ******
But when in the moment, chicken out
If that wasn't enough to **** things up
Then why do you want it?
Why do you want something you're not sure of?
Why do I want you?
With all your blasphemies and *******
From day till night
I ******* want you
My mind is set on pursuing you
but nowadays, that's not enough
wanting you will never be the same as having you
I will even take a bullet for you
but that ******* will never be enough
To win you over
Nothing is ever enough
Not even the universe
There is such thing called
Man's never-ending need for perfection
How irritating

When you left
I had to stay high every night
Just to keep you off my mind
I drank till the morning sun
Just to clear my head from you
If I stayed sober for a little while
I'll remember you and our memories
Then I'll scream to the heavens
Until they hear me
but they never do
So everyday I find a fix
I cant go home alone again
I need someone to numb the pain
or else, I'll end up on your doorsteps
Begging you to take me back again
But you never will, never did.

When the sun rises
I'll always be hunted by the memories
of the moans and the screams
The laughter and the tears
Torn in two if I should feel
remorse or confidence
with what happened
With you and me
Should I be sated
with the satisfaction of my thirst
or guilty, with all the things I should have said
After a while, I'll reminisce with a cup of coffee
while you finish your last cigar
and leave me thirsty again

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Play the piano
As you let those hands
slide from one key to another
Let the raging emotions
Echo in the room
Until that final note subsides

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Smile
Even though you're drowning
I'll save you
Reach out your hand
I'll be your lifeline
I'll be there
Dont worry
I wont let you go
Promise

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Maybe if you tried
To love him
The way she did
Maybe he wouldn't
Be looking for someone
Better than you

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Look into his eyes
You can see the beauty
Of the unknown
The longing he has
For something
He can never have
You will see--
Yourself

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It's 1am
I'm still thinking about
What could have been
What I could have held
and What i could have done
For you to stay
Forever

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Do not give me
flowers and chocolates
They cant suppress my desire
to hold you tight
and tell you
"you're mine"
while we lay under the stars

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It's a special day
For you and I
As you get ready
For the ringing bells
Of the church
And I,
Get ready for my
First day at work

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When I saw your name
I no longer felt the pain
I couldn't remember the happiness
I won't go back to the past
And I was sure
I was over you

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People are like puppets
We can constantly deny it
But there are strings
Attached to our souls
Manipulating us to do what must be done


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If I were given a chance
To turn back time
I won't change my past
Instead, I'll visit myself
Drop a note with the lottery's
Winning numbers

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We're not friends
We're more than that
You're just too arrogant
To acknowledge that fact
Because of that,
You lost me in the sea
Of sorrow


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My vision started to blur
When you told me
You wanted to leave
I never really enjoyed
Smoking and drinking
But it's all I could
Think about

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Maybe you're right
We've grown too different
To understand each other
We've drifted apart
From the neutral ground
We used to call home

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If you saw me in a different light
Would you take the risk
Of falling in love with me
Even though it probably
won't end right
Would you?

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You're going to slip
Through my fingers
Like you always do
But today's different
I'm going to let you go
Without hesitation or regret

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My teacher once said
"It's not the fall that hurts, it's the sudden stop."
That got me thinking about the possibilities
I agreed to his opinion but later on realized something
If you fall in an endless void of nothingness
You will feel the pain
You want it to stop but it will never stop
If the fall stops then your journey
has come to an end
Isn't that beautiful?
Sometimes, the end is the only way out