I want to disappear
Not necessarily end my life
Not disappear from others
But from myself
I want a moment to breathe
For my mind to say ‘It’s okay’ and truly mean it
To be able to walk down the hallway and not get overwhelmed
I want to disappear from the monsters in my mind
That makes every tomorrow not wanted

It’s funny
We take one glance at someone
Figure we figure out all that there is to them
Judge, critique, resent
Never wanting to ask them to dig deeper
Where did effort go

The greatest tragedy
Is that I'll keep loving you
Knowing you won't love me the same
But still hoping anyways

life
is so complicated
and simple
at the same time

life
will require you to do something,
yet require you to surrender
at the same time

life
will feel like surviving
and living
at the same time

life
is the ugliest,
yet the most beautiful thing
at the same time

The moon calls to me tonight—
I cannot resist her charms.
I slip beyond the confines of my room
To let the evening soak into my soul.

A full moon spills her silver light,
Darkness braided with her glow.
Rocky earth crunches beneath my feet,
Each step alive with sound and scent.

The high desert hums its song:
Stars glimmer, coyotes cry.
A noisy stillness fills the air,
As daylight’s brightness fills the sky.

My heaven is green grass,
And scent of sagebrush and hay.
I belong in this moonlit nirvana,
Where constellations burn like fire.

across my face.

I saw spring coming
in the meadow
where the wildflowers
whisper to the wind.

found freedom on a snowcapped mountain top,

smiled to the child offering violets
cradled in her tiny hands

and when she smiles to me

her joy ripples like sunlight
across the sea of love.

the curtain is lifted.

the soul becomes visible

(always in the wild places
in my heart.)