CantSeeMe

Aug 9

Blue Sapphire

AM I...

Am I here for a purpose?

Do I really have a reason to be?

Why can't I see it?

Why doesn't it call me?

CantSeeMe Aug 8

death in books
it changes my mood
maybe even
how I look

it reads like it's real
I just wanted you to heal…

these days
I've watched you die
though we didn’t even say
goodbye

but did we
ever say hello?
I'm sure you did
but I think
mine didn't fit

I've watched you die
on the couch
you didn't know me
you couldn't even see
someone was there
right next to you
listening free

I've watched you die
my eyes went crazy
always thought I was shady

don't trust me

I spy on you
never talk
only stalk
read your mind
so I could find
a great light
something bright

empathy
for you

they say it was right there
where you've died
on the other side
but I know

I've watched you die
on the couch

all I have of you
are words
letters
together
in chapters

I've watched you die
but you still exist
Don't you?
your name holds a story
you don't have to worry
I remember

I remember...

Sammie McCoy died of illness: het geheugenboek by Lara Avery

Annie killed: meisje vermist gevonden by Stefanie Sybens

Megan Harris car accident, hit by car: hou me niet vast by Wanne Synnave

Parker Bennet suicide: hou me niet vast by Wanne Synnave

Madame Manec natural death: all the light we cannot see by Anthony Doerr

Werner Pfennig stepped on bomb: all the light we cannot see by Anthony Doerr

Sall Sigh killed: a good girl's guide to ****** by Holly Jackson

Andie Bell choked on *****: a good girl's guide to ****** by Holly Jackson

Bianca Di Angelo sacrificed: the titan curse by Rick Riordan

Zoe nightshade: the titan curse by Rick Riordan

Luke Castellan sacrificed: the last olympian by Rick Riordan

Jason Grace sacrificed: the burning maze by Rick Riordan

Stanley Forbes/Jack Brunswick killed: good girl, bad blood by Holly Jackson

Rue Brownlow sacrificed: the hunger games by Suzanne Collins

Augustus Waters died of cancer :The fault in our stars by John Green

Jason Bell killed: as sweet as the death by Holy Jackson

#death #book #reading

Aug 8

mysterie

love

i knew that i felt love when i met my bestfriend.

i knew that i felt love when i met my first pet.

i knew that i felt love when i heard my new favourite song.

i knew that i felt love when i went to my first concert.

i knew that i felt love when i met one of my favourite artists.

i knew that i felt love when i hugged my mum.

i knew that i felt love when i sat down and ate dinner with my family.

love isn't just romantic.
it can be platonic.
and sometimes
it's even more special that way.

let yourself be loved,
and love other people
and things you enjoy.

date wrote: 8/8
love is all around. feel it. let yourself.

#love #loving #hugs #platoniclove

Aug 7

eliana

A Girl's View

Everyone tells me I'm gorgeous
That I have stunning features to die for,
But I must have gone blind,
Because I can't see them anymore.

When I know they're being honest,
I still think it's a lie,
I look into the mirror
I'm so ugly I want to cry.

I see a disabled person,
Or someone who's lost their arm or knee,
I see much potential in them
But can't see it in me.

Why is it my vision is impaired?
And I can't marvel at what others view
Why do I contend with myself
And see so much beauty in you?

What I see at my school - everyone thinks everyone is more beautiful than them.

#insecure #body #image #self

Aug 7

eliana

Just Fine

Things get hard I tell them I'll figure it out
In reality I don't know if to go right or left
Can't move a single step without being
Reminded of the pain I felt
Two step Forward
Five steps back
Sometimes I don't know how to react
I'm use to fighting
Story of my life
But let me be because I'll be alright
Mind out of body
Body out of mind
Forever I'm thinking that will be my kind
And that's just fine

Aug 7

eliana

Pushed Away

I want to be brave.
I want to be smart.
I want to be saved.
I want a new start.

I'm constantly being pushed,
Pushed to the edge.
Knock me down, now I'm crushed.
I'm falling over the ledge.
People tell me it's going to be all right,
But how much longer do I have to fight?

I know I have a purpose in life,
But how do I reach it when I'm trapped?
Nothing to do but wish into the night.
When I ask, it's never too far from being denied.
Save me or join me; just don't say no.
I promise I won't let you go.

We're not too far behind now.
A little further up is where our future lies.
Change is something I want to allow.
From here on out, all I'll do is rise.
Lord, I need the faith.
I need the strength.

I'm always trying to please people around me. I feel alone, but now I want to do something for me. I want to create a purpose and an inspiration for myself. I ask the Lord to help me, and I know he will. I have to find myself when everyone puts up obstacles in my life. Now is the time. I'm tired of being fake.

Aug 7

eliana

A Rose In The Moon

Amongst the midnight sky,
I stare at a rose as it dies.

Its pedals are torn and bruised,
such a precious thing to lose.

Yet, when I stare into the full moon,
I see that it will be daytime soon.

When I hear a girl's sorrowful cries,
I know that a new rose begins to arise.

Those pedals are lush and red,
nowhere close to being dead.

And as I find her inside my heart,
I know that I am not falling apart.

I finally realize who I really am,
it definitely took some time but, ****.

It was all worth it in the end.

I am the rose that dies and becomes a new one.

#beauty #redemption #me #self #rose #metaphor