Another one taken down
The bottle’s about empty
The bottle shouldn’t be empty
I just got it today..
But these pills should’ve killed me today
Why am I awake?
Is God shielding me from my grave?
I’ve already carved my name and the date
But my soul won’t succumb to the power of self-hate
Just great.
Now I’m stuck in this body
Without anybody
Look at me, I’m just a nobody
Without any hobbies of meaning
Or purpose to change the world
I wanna talk to a girl, but they constantly think I’m scheming
I lied to my ex about feelings I wasn’t feeling
I’m a pathological liar still wanting you to believe me
I love you, you believe me?
Of course not
Plunge the scythe in my chest, watch my corpse rot
Figuratively of course, I’m still alive
To my surprise, can’t count how many times I could’ve died
In my terms, should’ve died
My wrist resembles cracks on the sidewalk
Carnal are my thoughts
Such a ticking time bomb
Thank god for my mom
Otherwise, I’d be just another guy
Solidifying no significant presence in this present time
But I’m rambling, enough confessin’
Please leave now
I need to take these anti-depressants

Making love was easy for me
At least, it used to be
So many errant lovers I found
True love became difficult to see

The lips of a tender woman
Became an all-too familiar feeling
Convincing the feeling they gave me
Would prevent me from leaving

Best friends to complete strangers
Their passion all became the same
Regardless of the redundancy
*** was the only thing keeping me sane

Are men made for the comfort of a woman’s thighs?
Or are women inclined to rest upon a man’s pelvis?
This was never a situation of give and take
I never fail to get somewhat selfish

Contemplating at some times
Whether this life will lead me to my grave
Ignoring long term consequence
Just to make another ****** my slave

So, when this angel came along
Intimidated I was, to say the least
Expecting her to cut me down
Becoming my main source of grief

In the end, she gave in to me
Just another woman I fell into
Thought I'd never love again

Until I found myself saying “I do.”