Betrayal comes in many colours
Betrayal comes in many forms
No betrayal quite matches yours

The knife you stabbed into my back
Twists and slices my flesh
A painfully bitter reminder that I won't trust you again

Darkness lingers here because the wounds are deeper
Healing is hard when you don't want to get better
Darkness lingers here because you are a special kind of sick
The reality of death being your dearest wish

When she was a child she would escape into her mind
When she wanted to cry she would fake a smile
When she became a woman
She planned her great escape
The slice of a blade caused the end of her charade

You tore one of my walls down
Hoping to destroy me
I have a million layers growing exponentially
Try your best but my perfect mess will always be around

You say that you can survive without me
So go.

You say that I make you so unhappy
So go.

You say that you're sick of my violent mood swings
So go.

You say that I am emotional and needy
So go.

It's funny how you're still not leaving
It's funny how you're still touching me
It's funny how you phrase your apology

As I go.

Once upon a time
Once thousand years ago
I had this precious gift called youthful innocence

Funny how a fickle foe disguised by the name of Time
Can rob me of my scruples
Can corrupt an innocent mind

Once upon a time
A thousand years ago
I was a decent person but I let that person go

i never did die
we never did part
i exist eternally inside your heart
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