In the beginning of everything
once he was a good man
with the determination of a hero
the next chapter of his life began

tried to be the man
tried to be the husband
tried to be the father
tried to be a leader

things that i couldn't understand
he was bad and absent

he was a killer
my destroyer
my father

put his heart on his job
money on the table
without love to give
thought that he was able

a killer
a destroyer
a father

does it hurt? does it flinch you?
to see me now with them
knowing you were with me back then
it was a time where i was loyal to you
i would burn myself for you, oh i
no, i'm not.
do you still have that image of me in your mind?
no, i'm not.
i wish i wasn't the same
i wish you could change, so do i
no, i'm not.
so tell me, do you still see me this way?
like a pray, oh i wish you could just say

this love is not for me, this life doesn't worth with me
even though i search for this in my life, i know i never will get marry
the fear hunts me day and night in this forest of lie
you can't see through my face, you can't feel my disgrace
please don't treat me like a **** disease
i was born like this animal, by and melancholic
you feel the moment, i feel my past and my future raise it up
say again, my friend, what did you bet for?
when the sun goes down, my mania gets up
please don't treat me like a **** disease
just give me my medicines, i will get better soon

the knock on the wall wakes me up
the air is cold again
i feel me eyes open in a blowup
what i do? what i have now?
the thoughts starts again
what i am? what i have without?
but i still layed down in the cold ground
i have to do so much, but i can't
paranoia living inside of my head
agony taking care of my skin
my head filling up with my sin
and all of that, because i woke up
take me to my dreams again
the only place i can stay and remain
a memory, a melody, just one vision