AroruA

AroruA Mar 2018

Right outside the window, I see a light
Frightened that I spent another sleepless night
I'm trying to force myself to let go of these thoughts
But no they say, you have no say in this part!!

So here I am still, not crying but yet alone
Slowly drifting to sleep or so I think
My mind is still wandering and my thoughts are hyped
But I'm still trying and trying cause I'm not used to giving up..

I know it's just sleep and darkness and thoughts and nothing more
But at this exact moment, I'm not so sure
This moon outside feels so surreal, as I fall along the lines of unconscious and for a moment forget what's real.

They say its an escape, it's an imaginary reality we create
It's a platform filled with hopes, dreams, and desire to stay awake
I say it's none of that, please just hold still
Sooner it's all going to end and we'll let go of what's unreal.

#darkness #loneliness #imagination #dreams #sleep #reality

AroruA Mar 2018

The Agony of the Soul

Self-harm is not only physical
It's the pain you hold inside that's stabbing you deeper and deeper.

All this hurt will one day be gone
When you decide to let go of all this self-harm

When the sky becomes dark and the moon is invisible
When your eyes become red and the tears are unstoppable
When sitting feels like drowning and laying down takes too much energy!!
That's when you'll most feel vulnerable..
Not to breath, but to inhale your last air!
To let go of this world that gave you so much self-hate

That's when you think the soul needs a release,
because existence has lost its bliss.

#selfharm #pain

AroruA Mar 2018

#1

I've been told how to look
What to feel!
What to say!
So you are expecting me to be a certain way
Surrounded by all these faces I say that I don't fit in
I see less of myself compared to that girl over there laughing ....

But maybe that's superficial
Maybe she's just like me
Hiding under a shell, and not letting others see
Maybe she wakes up with the biggest regret
Maybe she doesn't want to laugh but that's not right compared to what society says

But I'm here for you girl, and I know you cannot hear
But feel it within that it doesn't end here
I know you feel crushed, hopeless and like nothing else matters
But still feel it inside that it's going to get better

I know you've heard this a million times, better days will come
But believe me when I say the worst has not yet arrived
I know you think its hard and what's the point in living when you see your self-esteem getting crushed upon even in every single one of your dreams

It will get better, say that out loud
Not because others will make it so, but because you have the guts to throw down what others expect, disagree with what others think, crush down that conformity that society has put you in
You will make it far, try to understand
And once you believe it, the mask you have put on will finally disappear it.

#pain #conformity #obedience #society #looks #surviving #struggle

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