I walk pass,
And he stares,
Who?
No-not you,
The bartender it is,
Unfortunately.

He smiles,
I blush,
At least- I try too,
Like every other girl would,
But I realised I couldn't,
Because I'm not like every other girl,
I'm your girl,
The broken girl.

I know I could never earn you back,
I know I could never make you pick my shattered pieces,
The pieces you broke,
So I hoped he would,
But he couldn't either,
Why?
Because he-wasn't you.

And the story repeats,
With my doctor,
My boss,
My driver,
And that's,
My after-love story.

**I still love you

I am a woman

I am always admired for my beauty,
But never for my intelligence,
I am always applauded for my expertise in house chores,
But never for my expertise in a professional career,
I am always expected to raise my kids,
But never to raise my voice.

I am a woman

I deserve to be a wrestler,
I deserve to be a lead actor,
I deserve to be a racer,
I deserve to be a DJ,
I deserve to be a pilot,
I- deserve to be the woman I, want to be.

I am a woman

I am just like your father,
I am just like your brother,
I am just like your uncle,
I am just like-that male stranger.

I am a woman

I feel light,
I feel free,
Something I haven’t felt in a long time,
A feeling,
That I last felt in the warm palms of my mother.

I realised that my feelings weren’t the ones holding you back,
But the memories,
Not the ones stuck in my head,
Because I’ve managed to bury them in my heart,  
But those texts, gifts, letters and worst of all the touch,
Your touch,
Like glue sticking on my body,
Like you-sticking on my body.

I feel free,
I feel light,
But I realised it isn’t something I have not felt in a long time.

I felt it,
Yes,
I felt free,
I felt light,
But that, was when I was with you.

When I was with you,
I never was with you,
I was always above you,
Above everyone else,
Light,
Happy,
And free,
But- you left.

You left, and hung a heavy weight on my throbbing chest,
Hauled me down from the sky,
That I hit the ground with such an impact,
It crushed my heart.

**You crushed my heart