Andres Martinez

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

Swimming

A Fear we never think about
Illogical till it happens
Sharks in the pool were always a thought
little did I know I would be able to relate
Deep dive Six feet
drowning isn't an option or is it
no life guard on duty
shouldve paid attention to the signs
But maybe after my friends might actually visit
I float enough so I don't have to tread but the way **** is going
I Might just go off the deep end

#heavythoughts

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

B&***

I still sit back and wonder how I ever got a chance.
still remembering your look at the Halloween dance
Not a mad monster party but you had me like a mummy in a trance
Wanted to impress you but no self confidence at the time
little did I know somehow I'd have you at my side
as funny as it may be and so long ago yet those are some of my best memories that I can't let go
Don't ask me why I've managed to stay around so long
if I had a response it's like listening to that one feel good song
switch it up though
she's a beauty and I'm the adicto..

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

Back of the class

Never my second option
always wanted to be first
Swallowed my pride
over the years kept my distance but still at arms reach if you needed me
if you wanted me
probably not
But still somehow you imprinted on my thoughts
Crushed always
every little conversation is meaningful
though I might never get the chance
I can stay hopeful and if not now or then well
in another lifetime I guess

#thinkingback #crush #guess #youwin

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

Night time

Dark skies
no signs
full moon next to it
my star
Bright as ever
The first to catch my eye
actually the first of the night
And the only one I care for
The rest don't have the same shine
so far from my reach
I can never really call it mine
I'll just sit back and enjoy the little time I get with it on rare nights

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

Queen of None

She wanted to be loved
but not in a total fairytale type of way, just wanted someone to understand that she was damaged
and still needed love
like everyone .
She would give her all for the one she
loves
Passionate and crass was her way .
A queen in ever aspect of her personality.

#queen #love #baggage #lonely

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

I would..

I would laugh but the pain isn't too bad
I would cry but the joke isn't funny anymore
I would think about it but the effort isn't worth it
And I would advise you but my words don't seem to ever stick
I Would like to share a memory but I feel that's all I am now.

#memories #people #friends

Andres Martinez Jul 2018

If you'd like

Let's talk about the things we normally wouldnt
And let's act upon those thoughts that we probably shouldn't
If I had it my way..well actually I couldn't
I'd rather not
I'm afraid things might not work
And the thought of possibly ruining another good thing
I guess it might be worth it
But are the signs there or do I just misinterpret
maybe a silver toungued devil but never a serpent
feel free to run around the grass
it's been well kept
Remember that feeling because when you get back to your side it might feel dead
just want to show you the finer things nothing big
nothing fancy
no designer mink
just a simple talk
A laugh
Not even a drink
Drunk words speak sober thoughts
might spill things well that I rather not.

#simple #struggling #women #crush #maybe #conversations