Lay me down, without the tears
and I’ll tell you all about the sweet vinyls
the playing music coursing through the air
The warmth of your embrace enveloping well

Like Peter, to never age
Like Wendy, to never change
I’ll lay my soul, as restless it may be
in this very cabin, where you loved me.

Reminiscing my youth has garnered regrets
And you were the light that took me from my deathbed.
You breathed me life and just like that I smiled
And then you left and I felt like an abandoned child.

I pushed until you fell of the edge
Until I couldn’t reach your hand
Until I was left alone and scared
Fear into anger and anger into bitterness.

I wish you had visiting hours
,a phone to call
Or even an address to write
So this time, I won't forget to say I love you
I'll say it twice.

I lay awake at night, staring into the dark
I rest my eyes yet still cannot rest my heart
The thumping reaches my ears and my anxiety reigns
I check the watch and see I’ve stayed up again

If I sleep I dream of dread
But what I feel is all in my head
I sweat from the rush adrenaline
My veins littered with epinephrine

I pray to the heavenly bodies, the gods above
To end the nightmares I’ve been dreaming of
Not all dreams were meant to be chased
Some meant to be buried, burned and never faced.

I run to worlds and planets to seek asylum
Going insane from the pain until i finally turn numb
In Mars I felt the greatest joy
In Jupiter I fell and I, myself almost destroyed

The rings of Saturn turned out to be my solace
I skip Uranus to swim in the oceans of Neptune
And in all the planets I’ve been to
When I close my eyes, i dream of nightmares, i dream of you.

The reminiscent mind that can't let go of the past,
still hangs and lingers to the memories of
half smiles and melancholic laughter.

A knife embedded to the back
red liquid seeping through
the pristine white shirt
Now stained with betrayal

Words hanging in the air
awkward stares
A relationship that can't be repaired

I have standards you can't meet and
you have standards that I can't either
so let's stop fooling ourselves
and end this together

Tell me how to feel or tell me how to lie
Instruct me and I'll follow the fear you live by
Cut me up and leave me open
Kiss my lips until they're swollen

Cement this hollow chest, harden my emotions
Punish the child within me, you've become my religion
Unwanted thoughts parallel to yours
We're meant to combust, let nature take its course

The toxic taste of your mouth has left me senseless
Bare and vulnerable you've left me defenseless
Fighting off my demons and yours
Your darkness sinking me, rotting my core

A shot here
and another there.
I let it all control me
the warmth spreading well.

Then everything turned blurry,
my head spinning with emotion.
Your figure embedded in my mind,
I guess I found my devotion.

Your sweet succulent lips
silently pulling me in.
Numerous onlookers,
Your lips are my sin.

You're the drug
and I'm your victim.
Pull me closer
I'm helplessly addicted.