you used to be my light.
I wear sunglasses now.

Why is it you?
Of all people to have the ability to ruin me
why is it you? Bryan?

You're awkward and too tall
on top unmitigated gall
you're plain rude.

So why do I want you?
Bryan?

In my mind there's a collection
of every time you've shown affection
and

The slightest inclination
only heightens my determination
to trip you.

I want you to fall hard
for me. Bryan.

With every facebooked text
it's been my only request
for the whole year.

Did you notice?
Bryan?

When the smallest appreciation
left my pupils dilated
it's so degrading

When my faith in you is fading
more praise is awaiting
I am stuck in this net.

What's so unfair
is that you're not even aware
of what you do to me.

If I told you, would you love me?
Bryan?

I hope you still care
with your big caring eyes
I hope you still fall in love with fictional characters
and you haven't given up on fairytales

I hope you still read
all these books we shared
Maybe you still wish to have lockers in  school
so a secret admirer could fill them with notes.

I remember you laughing really hard
at jokes we could only understand
How your smile disappears when you are sad,
how the world shatters when you are mad.

I hope your eyes still shine
whenever you get amazed
'cause I haven't seen them for a while.
I know you might have found eternal love,
do you remember about asking if we've ever been kissed?

I remember your heys and the world sparkled
intervals when we looked for each other,
a single thought was enough to share.

Those notes in our books still matter more
than thousands words of my other friends
I know they say nothing but they are still you
untouchable by time, for me to return there.

You wrote that I would never be alone,
how you knew I was surrounded by loneliness?
And now I become one with it,
embracing the cries of the night...

Missing you and hating myself when you act like I never existed...

You said "Should you forget about your past, you are nothing", You said....