It occurs when your talking to someone that means alot to you
When you have nothing to say so you look down at your shoe
Then your crush actually says hi are you ok
You say yes how was your day as you think about wat next to say
You have a meaningful conversation until you choke in surprise
She says something but you just cant believe your eyes
I personally choke when i talk to girls all the time
Wow how rich I would be if every time it happened I got a dime

Slowly
Oh so slowly
I'm thinking of happy love
Happy life
With the person I love
And then it comes

"Hey boy I'm you
The person you "love" would b so much better off without you
Can't you see she doesn't love you anymore
That she just feels pity
So she stays around to keep u calm
Just look at her and....him
Look how much they love eachother
Don't tear them apart
You can't be loved
Stop trying it's pointless"

No I refuse I still love her
She still likes me
He hurts her
Sure I have too but together we can make a change
We can love eachother once again
I know in my heart we can
She's all I have

"Don't you see you selfish little brat
The more you say those things the worse she feels
The more she hurts because Ur so lost
Your not inocent kid you cause much pain and harm"

No I refuse
This can't be true
All I do is try and love her
All I want is to be her only one

"Don't you see?!?!?! She already has the love she wants"

But I still love her
So much
She's all I think about
She's all I care about

"Your dragging her down kid"

I'm trying to lift us up on love
Together we can face any challenge as long as we have eachother

"She's better off without you"

I love her, she still loves me
Even with someone else she still loves me

"Your selfish and deluded"

This battle is never won only fought

"One day one side will win"

And then we will either be saved or destroyed

"Or you can join me in the shadows, un-noticed, unwanted, waiting for her to notice you, like the years before her you can be lost in the dark once again"

I don't want to come back there, I have feeling I have love I have hope

"We will see"

You really didn't love her
She was just an escape for you
A band aid to cover you bleeding wound

You really didn't love her
You just used her and threw her away
Even if you said that you did
I can assure you you didn't
Because if you had
Where is she?

Now she cries her heart
For the man she did love
She begs for death to take her

See I know...
You really didn't love her
She was just your medicine
Your escape from pain

You really didn't love her
Because people don't hurt
The ones they love

Sleeves of scars
and a garter of silver lines and burns
oh the hurt I've endured
Seated by the fire as a child
Lord knows I've had thoughts like this for a while
I'd dwell on the discretion I took
brooding over every hook that snagged my flesh
made a mess
of the little girl I never was
and they who shook me
pet me from the inside out
must have forgotten to what degree
their consumptive hands made me bleed
God how I wish they could see
every stain left with or without cause
was provoked by their nostalgic applause
but I don't even blame them
It was a conscious disease
perniciously eating
still chewing at me.