God is within me.
I shall not fail.

She saw her watching him;
her eyes filled with the greatest desire and affection for him.
It was too much for her.
She saw the love she held was obviously greater than hers.
And so she let him go; refusing to hold onto him when he had a greater love waiting for him.

She believed her love as not great enough.
That he was not worthy of the little that she could bring him.
So now she waits,
So now she heals.
Her love could never be enough.
Her love was never enough.

But she knew that she was enough.
Because unlike herself, her God knew
true love, Agape love.

And her God was willing to teach her how to love others.
But first,
He taught her how to love herself.

My sisters, my loves.
I'm entranced by their smiles,
Their laughter,
Their Joy,
Their essence,
Their ability to storytell.

My sisters, my loves.
The women who know
me more than my own
mother.

My sisters, my loves.
I pray the best for you.
I pray that the Lord's
Spirit will always
guide you.

My sisters my loves.
Your love will forever
be with me.
Your advice will shape
me to become the sister
I need to be.

I am not complicated.
I am not hard.
I am not tough.
I am broken, desiring affection, love from all those who desire to give it to to me.
But you God, you hold me down.
You fill me up with your love everlasting.
My eyes are filled with wonder and appreciation.
You embrace me.
Your touch ever so light.
You are the brightness in my life.
I pretended to have it all together, I pretend to have it all together, but you lord you hold me down.
You restore my mind, you teach me what is right.
You keep me sane.
You are my sanity.
Thank you.
Thank you lord that you are my sanity.