Fox: Poems

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Fox Apr 2018

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Beautiful
Things
Don’t
Seek
Attention

#beauty #attention

ADORE

Fox Oct 2018

ADORE

A- Amazing is what you are

D- Darling is what I am to you

O- Open is what we are to each other

R- Radiant is what we are together

E- Everything is what you are to me

I adore you Hagen (and I’m not afraid to tell people anymore)

Alone

Fox Jul 2018

Alone

It’s been a while

But it doesn’t feel that long

Though so much has changed

I’m still back at the beginning

Still alone

But this time

I have someone to miss

Something is wrong and I don’t know how to fix it

Broken

Fox Feb 2018

Broken

I have taken my turn
Through the darkness of life
I now know of strife

However I take great pride
That I can say

"I broke... but I survived"

But

Fox Mar 2018

But

It's his fault

He took advantage of you
(But did you ever ask him not to?)

He tried to talk
(But did you ever try to understand?)

He left you
(But would you rather him stay in a relationship where he felt trapped?)

He destroyed you
(But didn't you do the same to him?)

He still cares
(But all you do is wallow in self pity)

It's his fault
(But your to blame as well)

Sometimes all we do is criticize the speck in someone else's eye when we're to blind to see the log in our own.

#blame #selfpity #selfish

Clockwork

Fox May 2018

Clockwork

I’ve had people like me my whole life

One after another they’ve told me

And not long after that they ask me out

Some of them multiple times

And every time it happens I say no

It’s like clockwork

But then you come into my life

And shatter the clock against the wall

Because before you even asked

I was already saying yes

“yes” (this is so new for me)

Comeback

Fox Apr 2018

Comeback

I know you miss it here
But looking around
I think we miss you more

We were so glad you could comeback today

Commitment

Fox May 2019

Commitment

I do not belong to you
But show me your love
Show me your commitment

Wait for me

And in the end...
I’ll be yours

Dear boyfriend,

Fox Oct 2018

Dear boyfriend,

I love your smile
I love how you’re so caring
I love your deep voice
I love your eyes,
Your hair,
The way you held my hand.
I love laying on your shoulder
I love your humor
I love how you’re the perfect gentleman
I love the idea of us
I love you....

I just haven’t told you yet

Dear everyone,
I also love my boyfriend because he makes me smile more than anyone else I’ve ever known. So if you’re searching for someone don’t settle for anyone who doesn’t make you your happiest you.

Emotions

Fox Feb 2018

Emotions

I’ve never understood
Those who say
Feelings come from the heart

My emotions never
Seem to say
“Bu-bump”
“Bu-bump”

They go more like
“Fkwfqywbdkfhsyik”

#humor

Fear

Fox Feb 2018

Fear

Fear
Fear limits my every action
and fear
Fear haunts my every steps

But not you
You
You walk across the ground without a care
and you
You make choices seem easy

Teach me how to become like you

"Oh that's easy," you say...
"Just be you."

#beyou

“Fine”

Fox Mar 2019

“Fine”

I love myself
I truly do
And I know others love me too

I’ve always loved my figure
I know at one time I was too thin
But it didn’t really matter to me then

I’ve never suffered from depression
And anxiety attacks don’t plague me
Though my emotions sometimes run free

I only have two exs
The first is now my best friend
And on the other I can still depend

All in all
I really love my life
And it’s not full of much strife

Despite all of this
I still have insecurities
And these things like to plant seeds

People just don’t get it
I’m human too
I have problems too

But it’s fine
It’s whatever
I’ll go back to being fine

Because no one wants to listen to the “privileged girl’s” minuscule problems
She’s perfectly fine

Yeah I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything but I just needed to get some of my thoughts out of my head

Fly

Fox Mar 2018

Fly

I'm sailing through the sky
So fast the world flashes by

I just want to fly
Come with me or say goodbye

Friends

Fox Feb 2018

Friends

You asked me how to make friends

My answer was simple

Be one

After that it’s out of your control

Grey

Fox Feb 2018

Grey

My life was grey
And day by day

You painted my world with color

Haunted

Fox Feb 2018

Haunted

You haunt me

But I don’t think it’s your fault
It’s because I can’t fathom a life without you

Oh my darling
It’s my fault
Because while I know you’re already gone

I still can’t seem to say goodbye

Hurt

Fox Feb 2018

Hurt

He was my closest friend

But now I know better
He was after a relationship and nothing more...
Just like everyone else

And now that he doesn’t see anything more than friendship
He’s done with me

And it hurts...

so much...

I wish he would’ve realized how much a friendship means to me.

I’ll Try

Fox Mar 2018

I’ll Try

My mother expects me to
Look as good as possible
Act as mannerly as possible
Make the best grades possible
But sometimes
I just can’t
But I love you Mom...

So I’ll try my best

Immortal

Fox Feb 2018

Immortal

It is what I am

It was my wish

But now it’s my nightmare

I beg to be released

But I only hear laughter in response

My laughter...

Because I’m alone

Forever

Immortal

Joy

Fox Mar 2018

Joy

Some people give me happiness from time to time

They make me laugh or smile

And sometimes they even get me to dance

...But you...

You give me joy

And that will be eternal

Judge

Fox Mar 2018

Judge

Who are we
To judge what we see
When you don’t even know me

Learn

Fox Feb 2018

Learn

In the darkness of the world
We learn what is truly light

In the midst of pain
We learn what isn't suffering

In the journey of death
We learn the meaning of life

In the absence of friends
We learn what true friendship is

Lesson learned
Now...
Move on

#moveon

Lost but Found

Fox May 2019

Lost but Found

I hate when someone
Says something
Does something
Anything
Anything that reminds you of her
Of what happened

Anyone else just sees you shrug it off
But I see it
The look in your eyes
The pain
The hurt
The regret
The regret that you were blinded
Blinded by your care and devotion
To someone who broke you after claiming to love you
To someone who put you in a place
A place of depression that you yourself would never
Never wish on another person

You were lost
Left with your reputation shattered by lies and rumors
And I wish
“I wish with all my heart that I could erase that pain you feel in your heart every time you are reminded of what you had to go through
The pain that shows hidden only in your eyes

But I can’t
But I can let you know and show you
That you aren’t lost anymore
You can learn to trust again
Because I will always be there for you
We will always be there for you
And together we will rise”

I wrote this for my book but I thought I’d share so I put it in a “poem” format. It’s when you go through hard times that you really learn who your true friends are.

#friendship #love

Mistakes

Fox Feb 2018

Mistakes

Though he left her

He broke his own heart
So he came to me for laughter

Laughter to help heal him
But you didn’t understand

He cared so much
But all you could see were his mistakes

And that was a mistake

Nerves

Fox May 2018

Nerves

I’m overwhelmed

With happiness
With excitement

But also
A sense of nervousness?

Maybe it’s anxiety?
I really wouldn’t know

All I know is that I’m ready to face it

I might be overwhelmed

But I’m ready

I’m going on my first date Monday.
Bring it on.

#nerves #moviedate

New

Fox Oct 2018

New

It’s only been a little while

But it’s scary that I already want it to be forever

You’re so new to me
And I to you

The greatest thing though
Is that you treat me better than I treat myself
And you treat me better than anyone else has ever treated me

And that’s new to me

To: HP

Notification

Fox Apr 2018

Notification

I hear my phone buzz

It’s from you

And I’m already smiling

Before I’ve even read it

I miss you...

Obsession

Fox Mar 2018

Obsession

He’s all she can think about

Every typed word
Every tear soked night
Every self pitying sentence

It’s a reflection of him

Every flash back
Every harsh word
Every poem

It’s a thought of him

Every heartache
Every confusion
Every cry

It’s a longing for him

Every apology
Every blame
Every doubt

It’s because of him

She’s obsessed with him...

Pac-Man

Fox Feb 2018

Pac-Man

Running from your problems
Is like running from Pac-Man ghosts

You might escape one
Or maybe two

But then they team up
And you’re all alone...

Question

Fox Feb 2018

Question

I ask myself
Can I be me without you?

The answer is
Yes

Because I was me before you.

Safe

Fox May 2018

Safe

I trust you
To take my life in your hands
As you drive me away

But I also trust you
To bring me home safely

And not just physically
But emotionally

I feel safe with you 5

Second

Fox Jul 2018

Second

She told you to cast me aside
So you did

And when she cast you aside
You came to me

But I was foolish
And gave you a second chance

And now she came back to you
And you’re giving her a second chance

Because I was your second choice

Yeah it kind of hurts...

Shapes

Fox Mar 2018

Shapes

Why do people think
That being cubby
Is ugly?

Thick thighs

Rounded stomach

Flabby waist

I’ve never thought it mattered
Because if someone
Thinks you’re ugly
Because of the amount of skin
You have or don’t have

Then they don’t know
What true beauty is

Because in my opinion
If they care for you
They’ll love all of you

#love #shapes

Shut Up

Fox Feb 2018

Shut Up

When you tell yourself
"Your weak"
"You’re worthless"
"You’re a waste of life"

Do you a favor
and tell yourself
"Shut up"

Sometimes

Fox Mar 2018

Sometimes

Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I glare
Sometimes I yell

But usually that's not me...

I usually smile
I usually dance
I usually sing

But sometimes that's not me...

Talk

Fox Apr 2018

Talk

We talk
And talk
And talk

But at the end of it all
One of use eventually has to hang up the phone

And then we sit there and wonder
When will be able to talk again?

And eventually we do
And we talk
And talk
And talk

And then we hang up the phone

I know you’re only 3 hours away
But it feels like there’s a whole universe of distance between us

I want to see you

I want to see you smile when I tell a cheesy joke
I want you to see me actively listening to what you’re saying
I want you to see me roll my eyes when you tease me
And I want to see you pretend to be offended when I call you a nerd

Because even though
We talk
And talk
And talk

Sometimes it’s just not enough

Thanks

Fox May 2018

Thanks

My heart sings with joy

My chest fills with laughter

My mind can only smile

And it’s all because of you

Thank you

Theater

Fox May 2018

Theater

What will it feel like?

To have you
So close to my side
At a theater
Far from home
As we watch
A dancing screen
Together
But
Alone

#date #movie #together

Time

Fox Feb 2018

Time

"Have we met?"

"Not formaly."

"What are you?"

"A theif."

"You don't look like a theif."

"I know. I look like a belssing don't I?"

"Who are you exactaly?"

"Time."

Title

Fox Apr 2018

Title

I will never
Allow myself
To be trapped
And contained
By a stereotypical
Title

To: My Friend 5

Fox Mar 2018

To: My Friend 5

Hey...
I know you’re hurt
I know you feel cast aside
But don’t devalue yourself
You deserve to be
Accepted
And
Appreciated
(She just didn’t get that)
You’re not worthless
But rather the opposite
And no matter what
Know that you are adored

I’ll always be there for you 5

Trust

Fox Feb 2018

Trust

Trust is like hair

It can go all the way down to your waist

But once you cut it...

It takes years to grow back

#trust

Want

Fox Apr 2018

Want

What do you want?

I want you
To want me
As much as I
Want you

But I’m unsure if you do

What Matters?

Fox Apr 2018

What Matters?

When I tell a joke
If I laugh
That’s all that matters

When I put makeup on
If I like it
That’s all that matters

When I sing
If I enjoy it
That’s all that matters

Let me be selfish in this way
I don’t do these things for attention
I do them for me

I know not everyone will believe me
But that’s okay
Because I believe me
And that’s all that matters

Wink

Fox Apr 2018

Wink

Today we winked at each other

It was not the first time we have

But this time it was different

Because since we were sitting so far away

Other people saw us

And they started to chatter

But you, KM, said

“Naw it’s okay because we’re best friends”

And that one sentence from you

Gave me the biggest smile I’ve had all day

Thanks for being my best friend buddy

Wolf

Fox Feb 2018

Wolf

While my music is frightening to you,
It's beautiful to me.

You might think I'm savage,
But are you any better?

Don't compare me to others.
Just let me be free.

Let me be me.

Yours

Fox Apr 2018

Yours

You fear rejection
But with me
You never have to worry about it

Because I’m already yours

Ugh I haven’t seen you in forever. Come homeee.

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