I just feel so sick
Like I'm down getting kicked
As if My chest is caving in
Like something needs to be against my skin

I crave the feeling of pain
And I know that people think I've gone insane
That I would crave a Blade
Some may have even prayed

But nothing quite satisfied me like that did
So if you think that I'm messed up I'll take your bid
Because sometimes I feel completely hollow
Just filled with guilt and sorrow

But after the deed is done I may not see the morning sun
I lay there thinking maybe this is the one.
That will finally let too much slip out
The one that causes a metaphorical draught

But I'm still here writing this
it really must make some of you reminisce
But now that I've caught your attention
Maybe you'll realize it's time for ascension.

I want you to know people care about you
That I've felt the same as you too
But I realized that I was all wrong
I just wish it wouldn't of taken so long

So I'm trying to help you
Please call that hotline, this is your cue.
They just want to guide you
But you need to want help too.

They can't call you
So just open up and let it spew
All the raw emotions you've shed
All the feelings you've bled

I promise that I love you
here's your clue
I wrote this just for someone like you
Because I was once just like that too

-CC

before you go and do something dumb
I know how it is just to feel numb.
take a moment to let me tell you people care
because maybe you want to share but you don't dare.
don't be afraid to tell somebody you need help
because no matter how small the yelp
they will be there to listen to you
so maybe this is your cue.
this world is better with you in it so don't quit
Please stop hiding that pit
speak out and seek attention
let's start the process of ascension
I know that you feel alone all by yourself
like you've been placed on a dusty shelf
cut off from a society that doesn't love you
but I'm telling you that isn't true.
just give a call to that hot line
let it be a light in the dark that shines
because they will answer and listen
the tears will fall and glisten
because you'll know that they care
you can let go of the tremendous weight you bare.
people love you and they always will
so before you take that pill
before that Blade touches you again
before you step off the end
put down that gun
and just call them so you live to see the morning sun
I love all of you with all of me
I just hope I reach you in time for you to see.
I beg and plead
before you start to bleed
just call them and talk
they want to help you they really do.
don't be afraid to take that first step
don't be like me and never speak out.

-Caleb J. Collins