Should I hang with my friend who I haven't seen in a year or go meet this tinder girl?
Someone New - Hozier

I just can't put my finger on it.
something about her is goregous.
Baby Got Back - Jonathon Coulton

You're right. It's totally her ***.
Ugly Faces - Watsky

Shh, spotify, be nice. It's not her fault.
Do Better - Say Anything

Okay okay, you're right. I'll bring her home.
All Time Low - Jon Bellion

Oh c'mon, She's not that bad...
Proove Me Wrong - Dub FX

Well like... her personality is pretty cute.
Some Girls Are Crazy - Echo Movement

I can't beleive I just had *** in my backseat.
Glad You Came - The Wanted

Yikes. All the girls dropped from this party. it's just gonna be me and my three dude friends.
To Many ***** On The Dancefloor - Flight Of The Concords

I completely agree. Should i go or just come up with a ****** excuse to leave?
You Don't Have To Be A ******* - Flight Of The Concords

You're right i'll leave. What should i tell them?
Working - I Fight Dragons

No i already told them i got the day off. That wouldn't work.
My Buddy's Back - Big D and The Kids Table

Oh perfect!
Sleepyhead - Passion Pit

Yeah I should go to bed.
Let me finish this poem first.
Go To Bed - Ookla The Mok

I'm stuck on this line.
What's a good word to describe Port Veritas? Like... one word?
Home - Phillip Phillips.

That's adorable... you're so right.
See You Again - Wiz Kahlifa

******* spotify that was super uncalled for. Now i'm bummed out.
Get Over It - Ok Go

Dude. That's like super insensitive
Ungrateful - Streetlight Manifesto

No i'm not ungrateful. I love you, you just don't need to make me cry when i'm down in the dumps like that.
Lean Into The Fall - Mona

I guess you're right. Fine. Thank you.
All The Stars In Texas - Ludo

That's the nicest thing that anyones ever said to me. I like when you do that.
Like or Like Like - Miniature Tigers

Uhh, i guess like like. You're pretty much my favorite app.
R U Mine? - Arctic Monleys.

I think maybe you're moving a little fast spotify... i don't think I'm ready for that kind of commitment.
I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

This is getting weird. I'm going to bed.
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie

Okay no, seriously i'm turning you off.
*Don't Unplug Me - All Caps.

When I met you, I prayed I wouldn't fall in love.
I'm not really religious but if I believe in a god then he must have made you special,
Someone just for me that challenges the strict rules I am made of.
A human with life and kindness in their heart that is half full.
Maybe I see you better than you are or better than you think,
But I can't really help the thought that I might be the pen and you my ink.
My words may haunt me like the spirits I drank to relax.
You exorcised the ghosts from my chest.
You caressed my body of abandoned railroad tracks.
For once I can feel a home in the spaces where we rest
While this dance plays out in my mind.
I remember that people are usually terrified of what they don't understand
So, it that's true then I must be terrified of you.
As the dark attic of my mind flickers with shadows prancing along,
I can only sit and wonder what kind of life you've gone through.
My love can't waver from you despite the mystery I see
Because I know the gods must have made you for me.

Skiing today
Eggs and bacon for breakfast
Abuelas Christmas leggings on my legs
Jon bellion coming on shuffle
skip
Pictures of you on Instagram
My birthday without you
Heart still hurts
I messed up
*help

1.  “Redbone” by Childish Gambino
       *From the album “Awaken My Love!” circa 2016
There is something here of the generations
My mother used to hold me to her chest
And play songs that sounded a lot like this one
A string of notes and a backbeat that could lead a war
That old time sound of a desperately truthful falsetto
Of loves and lusts lost and almost lost

        2. “Ribcage” by Mary Lambert ft Angel Haze
        From the album “Heart on my Sleeve” circa 2014
I’ve always had a penchant for clever lyrics and simile
Self titled Queen of Metaphor circa 2008
This one is a heartbeat, trapped in a cage of craving bone
With vulnerable voices raised in honest harmony
Then comes the rap Angel, spitting psalms of poetic pleas
Desperate to be understood when words work no longer

3. “HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T” by Fall Out Boy
From the album “Mania” circa 2017
A love song about holding memories like mists in tight fists
A distance insurmountable between two linked chains
It’s the point where numbness reaches its peak,
But you remember the all consuming wave of emotion
The way a child who has lived their whole life in the desert
Remembers being born at sea

4. “The Good Part” by AJR
From the album “The Click” circa 2017
This is where you are when you’ve reach three fourths completion,
A 2pm existential crisis, an out of body stress headache
A melancholy look back at all you’ve achieved,
A Pride in the journey, when you’ve still got miles before the finish line
Weeks of hard work, all in an unending line,
A tired request to flip to the Happily Ever After

5. “Maybe IDK” by Jon Bellion
From The Album “The Human Condition” circa 2016
This is the finale of an existential nightmare,
The part of dissociation where the world comes back into focus,
When you talk your brain into circles to get back to sense,
This is the sigh of relief when your questions stop spiraling
Like living through a hurricane, hands clasped, eyes closed
Coming outside, and seeing the sun

6. “Once in a Lifetime” by Talking Heads
From the Album “Remain in Light” circa 2005
Finally, the return of your mind, the tingling of overthinking
Come to rest. This is the feeling of everything being “alright”
When you haven’t been alright since two years old. This is
The temporary “back to normal”, the frequently pressed reset,
Button that makes you function again, when you know
Deep down, you’re an iphone four years out of date

If ever you have some spear time you should listen to these songs.

Oceans by Seafret
W̶e̶ ̶h̶i̶d̶e̶ ̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶e̶m̶o̶t̶i̶o̶n̶s̶
̶U̶n̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶u̶r̶f̶a̶c̶e̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶p̶r̶e̶t̶e̶n̶d̶ ̶
B̶u̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶f̶e̶e̶l̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶r̶e̶'̶s̶ ̶o̶c̶e̶a̶n̶s̶ ̶b̶e̶t̶w̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶m̶e̶

Guillotine by Jon Bellion
T̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶e̶c̶r̶e̶t̶s̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶t̶e̶l̶l̶ ̶m̶e̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶a̶k̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶g̶r̶a̶v̶e̶
̶T̶h̶e̶r̶e̶'̶s̶ ̶b̶o̶n̶e̶s̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶c̶l̶o̶s̶e̶t̶,̶ ̶
B̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶h̶a̶n̶g̶ ̶s̶t̶u̶f̶f̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶w̶a̶y̶ ̶
I̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶m̶e̶
̶E̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶w̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶I̶ ̶l̶o̶s̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶m̶i̶n̶d̶ ̶ ̶ ̶

All Time Low by Jon Bellion
N̶o̶w̶ ̶I̶'̶m̶ ̶a̶ ̶g̶h̶o̶s̶t̶
̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶l̶l̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶n̶a̶m̶e̶
̶Y̶o̶u̶ ̶l̶o̶o̶k̶ ̶r̶i̶g̶h̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶r̶o̶u̶g̶h̶ ̶m̶e̶

May you forever drip golden lyrics from your lips
ambrosia melodies from your fingertips
May dancing never leave your feet

You procrastinate
You are lazy, AF
You are childish


You believe in God, just not that religious.
You pray sometimes, most times you don't.
You listen to music,
you know its a sin. You do it anyway.
You don't drink, you've tasted it though.
You used to gamble
You like to think you would change someday,
just not today, not tomorrow, but soon.
You understand you might die anytime,
even tomorrow,
but you don't want to think about that.
You know you will probably end up in hell,
if you go on this way.


You think you have a unique taste in music
You like hip hop rap, R&B,
and whatever TF Olamide raps - or sing.
You like 21 pilots, Billie, Jon Bellion among others.
You like Eminem, NF, Lil Wayne
You love J. Cole. - Its a Cole world
You resonate with being fake,
You totally get it when J Coles said
"I'm a fake ***** and Its never been clearer.
Can't see me when I look in the mirror"
Except you see yourself when you look in the mirror.


You watch movies
Maybe too much
Mostly series
You hate Yoruba movies.
You hate Bollywood, too much Film tricks


You read
You just don't do much of it
You like classical novels
You hate business books.
You like poetry


You like Nicki M
You admire Shukroh
You have a crush on Tomi
You have never been in any relationship though,
Not because you deliberately choose to.
Probably because you're just so naive,
or because you are broke, like broke broke.
But you are far from innocent.


You have dreams
You think you might be successful
You are not so sure.
You are afraid you won't


You care about what people think about you,
more often than not.
You think you are not normal
You are an introvert,
You prefer being alone.
You hate sympathy


Someone did a terrible thing to you
You don't hate the person
You don't know how you feel about it.
You'll probably never tell anyone about it though


You did something terrible to someone.
You feel this pain in your chest,
that ugly cringe on your face,
every time you recall.
You said sorry, and you meant it


You lied to your parent
You are not trying to hurt them
You just want to spare them the pain,
and yourself of the pain,
knowing they felt pain because of you,
of facing the fact that despite their best efforts,
you are a mess.
You intend to fake it, till you make it.


You are dying
You have health problems
You didn't seek medical help
You can't afford the bills yourself
You won't seek help
You are that stupid


You think you are closing up on doom,
on a downward spiral.
You are your worst enemy
You know you've yourself to blame


You'll always be grateful for Omolara's generosity
You'll never understand Shukroh's heart of Gold.
You are so lucky.
You don't deserve them.
You are thankful


You are trying to critique who you are.
You are sad, maybe depressed.
You want to convince yourself,
this is all part of life
You hope everything will be alright.
In the end.

ConVos

Part |

Technology, seems to be our life
Our DNA stored on drives
Waiting to be uploaded online.

Part ||

Reals live forever  
Fakes shall be exposed
Souls trapped, in screens and boards.

Part |||

Jon Bellion
Humans' interactions - All Time Low
A conversationalist, exist no more.

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