I think of you 
As I write tonight 
I try to focus 
On every word
And line and sentence
But all I'm left with are
Senseless paragraphs
And your name written 
At the back of my hand

It's sad because I can't talk to you about love
Instead we talk about stupid films,
The ones we will never watch together 
We talk about stories,
But not ours, never 
You look at me while I look away
And it *****
Because all I wanted was to tell you 
How cute your smile is
How the weight of your stare affects me 
And all I want is to hold your hand
But now, as I think of you 
I choose to be silent 
Silence is okay 
Silence is louder

"You can only fix broken things"
You said as I stared right into your soul
My heart beating inside my chest, slowly
Hoping with a fragile hope

"You can only fix broken things"
You said while watching the sun set
My hands went numb, fingers useless
Wishing you noticed but all you did was look 

"You can only fix broken things"
But all I wanted was to hold you
To love you slowly 
In fear of losing and breaking myself too 

"You can only fix broken things"
I said when I realized I'm not good enough
Filling the space between us with empty promises
As I drifted off to sleep, I only knew one thing:
That I cannot fix broken things

He's supposed to be strong
He's supposed to be the best 
Because he's a guy

You'll never see him weak
You'll never see him cry
Because he's a guy

He has to hold on
He has to keep moving on 
Because he's a guy 

But he's also shy and reserved
Silent but listening 
He's afraid to fail, slip, and fall
He cries and drinks 
To shut the weakness out

But you'll never see this
You'll never know this
Because he's a guy

I want to be there
When you're sick and cold
To hold you close to my heart
Never letting go

I want to be there
When tears start to gather near your eyes
You can always borrow my shoulders
And my arms, and my hands, and my embrace 

I want to be there
When you feel like drinking at 2am
Because the pain woke you up
And you know sleep is not an option anymore 

I want to be there
Even though you said you can handle it
Even though you said you're okay
Even though I can see your pain

I want to be there 
Because that's the only thing I want 
That's the only way I can show my love
To be there

I want to be there 
When you hate the world for being unfair
When you drift to sleep thinking you're not loved
I'll be there to stay.

It was the first time I saw her
Walking past empty sidewalks
My hands were cold, the night was young
I found myself entering a crowded room
It was loud and everyone smelled the same
I shoved my hands in my pocket
Back against the wall, head lowering slowly
But then I saw something 
Someone*
It was the first time I saw her
She was dancing 
I can't stop looking at her
I was mesmerized
By her hands, the way she moved
It felt real
Everything was perfect, beautiful 
It happened really fast
I didn't want her to stop
I didn't want this moment to pass
I didn't want to die

11:09 PM will never be the same

I imagine the space over the earth 
Where the sun, moon, and stars appear 

Gaze on the sky for me tonight
Think of me when you see the clouds

I lie awake on the other side of the world
Cursing timezones and different horizons

I wish I could hold you and tell you this
"Let me taste those lips before I even see the world"

Sitting there under starry sky
The smell of burnt marshmallows 
The crackling of fire
The laughter and chatter
The sound of bottles clinking 
The feeling of being young forever
What a sight to behold
A picture worth keeping 
And then there's you
Hair messy, glasses askew
But still breathtaking 
And then I was confused
On which view was more beautiful

I am drowning
Words fail me whenever I need it the most
My thoughts would fill the ocean between us 
But my words would never reach your shore 

I am drowning
My actions would never be as strong as his
I could pull away the anchor that weighs me down 
But my hands are tied behind my back

I am drowning 
And as I look up to meet your gaze 
The world embraces me back to slumber 
Your eyes like the color of sunset