You were the right face
At the wrong time, love
I only wish I woulda known it
Wouldn't have been so quick to give you up
When you have a good thing you hold it
Even deep down
I know we weren't in sink
I wish we had more time to be in harmony
Because we were just victims of the time and place
I changed my mind
And I turned to you
But you were already gone
I see you now
You're just a stranger
We wave hello,
I'll see you later
Its funny how
We were almost perfect
In my 25 years
Want to be
With the words I say
My good friends
They told me, your sacred,
You avoid it.
But it's not too late
I want to be more
So, as I sit here in my bed
Just like I strut through
My long apartment halls
And those Chinatown streets
They love my bad ass boots
Like the tiger that I am
I am a Capricorn
Hunting for the truth
I am the Leo
Getting ready to put on the boldest show
I am Baby
Full of heart and soul
I am me
Not going to repeat old ways
Here to stay
With only truth to say
My tiger ways,
I'm coming your way.
am cold Snow
born and flakes
In snow fall
the of in
winter time shape
month The the of snow shaping
January. pure white gloves,
white stars, warm
colour. shining and
I am bright clothes
born In Thick
In the light.
Give me energy
I got none
I lay here
Death is not on the mind
But it feels like
It’s coming for me
Please give me some
I’m a Capricorn
It’s my first name
Give it to me
You’ve stolen it from me
I dream of a full plate of delicious vegetables and fruit
The dream dictionary says I lack a specific nutrient
Whatever it is give it to me
Saturns hexagon shaped storm stuffed into a human body.
I open my mouth and the black bellowing thunder
batters everyone in my way into the ground,
gailforce winds stealing their breath to make it mine.
Ferocious tidal waves live in my eyes and
leak from me and fill the room
but i'm already drowning.
My lungs are filled with dirty water and I feel it flooding my veins like poison.
I can feel the bolts of lightning glittering behind my eyes,
stunning those who try to look at me - into me.
I am a complete hurricane in a persons form, a never-ending storm,
a destructive monster crushing and
stomping on everything in the way.
A fusillade of iron bullets shoot from my skin.
I need to drag everyone down with me,
make them bleed with me.
Suffer with me.
Her hazel eyes tell me secrets that
I have never heard of before.
And she don't have to worry about them,
because now I only want more.
I want to learn more about her, about the
person that lies beneath the firm ground.
About the person that will not let anybody
see her tears and instead let herself drown.
She is as mysterious to me as the girl
who forgot her glass slipper on the stairs.
And I can insure her, no one has occupied
my mind as she has, no one compares.
And when I finally tracked her down
and faced her with nowhere to hide.
She all of a sudden just gave up on running away,
and I made our fates collide.
I could see she started to realize how curious I
was and how much I wanted to get closer.
Sadly, I was not aware I trapped her in a corner;
I must have looked like a merciless bulldozer.
Somehow, she put all of her fears away and
prepared herself for an unexpected battle.
A battle I did not know she was fighting because to me,
I only saw an interesting person unravel.
As time passed by, I came to know her a lot better,
every day she showed me something new.
She took me by my hand and showed me another world.
She showed me her different point of view.
She could endure every pain that came in her way,
even walk through an eternal winter storm.
That did not surprise me when I found out she was
born under a steady sign such as the Capricorn.
But then a day, it all suddenly became clear:
She was tomorrow and I was today.
We both came to realize we were too different
and eventually she went a separate way.
And I look at the sky that used to be a pretty
shade of blue but now is a gloomy grey.
My heart still aches when I think about her
and I still occasionally pray.
Pray that our paths will meet one more time
and perhaps we could begin again.
But I doubt she wishes for the same thing as I do, and
there is probably no difference between now and then.
And as the lifespan of a flower, our love was ephemeral.
I was happy it happened but I still can't move on.
I finally came to realize she was the sunlight;
and now the sun is gone.
Some days I feel like I'm the only one sitting on land mines of havoc and malarkey in hazardous debris
These bones, This body
Can't hold the weight of the weary world
My mind thinks otherwise
You see the smut upon my face, disdain you say
My flow of emotions, rolling, unsettling I hold an exterior of persistence
Climbing the highest mountain
Pulling, pushing, holding, (my inner guides lead me)
Tenacious, determined, forceful, unshakable (my hardy heart wont deter me)
One day you will see my silhouette from the mountain top - Just wait my dear
In last night’s episode, a feeling washed over me
Lonely and alone, I broke down
And within those few moments of emotional inertia
I wept for everything and everyone;
For Prince and Bowie and all the others
For the planet
For my loved ones
and all of their problems I can’t solve
But not for myself, I wouldn’t allow it
I deny myself everything I need;
A person to love and be loved by
A shoulder to cry on
Permission to be weak
Help when it’s needed
A part of me died
and I reflected on how trivial it is
always making things difficult for yourself
Questioned why my life is so hard
As if it’s all some joke everyone is in on
They’re laughing and rooting against me
while I fall back down each time I get back up
Does anyone understand what it’s like in my shoes?
How can they when I don’t let anyone in?
Hell, I don’t even understand my own weary soul
So star crossed and aimless
and pulled in every direction
Searching….searching….unable to find solace
Looking for home in people and places and things
Put a noose around my heart,
hung it for all to see
There is no love for one so smart and strong
There is no place for one so resistant to belong
There is no hope, or so it seems
Impatiently waiting for someone to prove me wrong
To cut these ties
To free me from myself
To make me feel alive
Because damn it, I’m just like a beautiful flower
I thrive in the right environment
I will flourish and bloom
and grow into the best version of myself
Stable, no insecurity
My fruits will nurture you in return
I will love you like you’ve never been loved before
Baby, the brightest diamonds and pearls are made over time
The future’s gonna be good to me
Chin up, buttercup -
with death comes new life