Do you know how hard it is to watch the person you love, love someone else?
Do you even see the pain in my eyes when I look at you?
I am so close, I can touch you, I can feel you
but I can never have you.

There were queries left unanswered.
Excruciating pains that my heart felt when I am with you
and you're thinking of her.
You kiss me like I was her.
You made me her replacement but until the end,
I can never be her.
You can never love me.
I can never feel your love.

I never wanted someone
As much as I want you
I'd give **** near anything
To be with you
I'd say anything
To have you in my arms
And I would do everything
To wake up next to you

Sad at work / Sad at play
Sad at noon / Sad all day
Sad at home / Sad abroad
Sad at Church / There is not God
Sad your were created / And sad you'll stay
The world will give / And take away
There is no morality / There is no good
There's no use trying / To do as we could.

I have two blankets on my bed and I still get cold, guess I need someone in the night to hold.

Some nights I'm too tired to think
And I sleep too hard to dream
Those nights are good nights for me
I can rest peacefully

Some nights I'm not tired enough
And the thoughts are loud in my head
Chastising me for the things I didn't do
For the words I left unsaid

Some nights I lie wide awake
Treading in my own regret
Sleep tiptoes around me
Not ready to consume me yet

Some nights I torture myself
Asking why why why
I could've been yours, you could've been mine
Had I not been so asinine

Some nights are for wonder
On why I am the way I am
So over emotional all the time
Unable to make anyone understand

Most nights are like these, for prayer
That maybe this sleep will be the long one
Maybe this will be the slumber that puts me at ease and
I can rest peacefully

I fall in and out of reality
Every day could be a different dimension
Depending on my mind
And what it chooses to hide in illusion.