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Amber Lynn Boyd May 2017
To be as I am
You must experience
What I have been through
What I have felt, and thought
Not only during the events I keep
Chained to a wall in the unconscious of my psyche
But in all of the times
I have taken simple pleasures
And soiled them
With my lure of taking pretty things
And ripping them apart

What a horrid habit of mine
To take a good situation
And manipulate it until all I have to do
Is strike a match, stand back, and watch
As everything that was once beautiful
Turns to ruins at my feet
The only things left are
The memories I have
Of the horrible things I've done
Another set of chains on the wall
  Oct 2015 Amber Lynn Boyd
Holly
It's all *******.
The way you smile at me.
The way you gaze into my eyes like you care.
The way you caress my face.
And the way you stroke my hair.

Its all lies.
When you make me feel special and unique.
You like the way that I ask questions.
You like the way i think.

It's all just things you've trained yourself to use.
Like all the selfish yous,
You're the worst I really think.

But then maybe I'm to blame since I approached you first.
Knowing that it's just a game
And I could never quench your thirst.

And now I have to decide...
To stick with the hurt and abuse.
Or do I suffer alone and at least value my worth?

Because I will not be second.

I wont have others fondled in my face.
I wont be yours to call when you leave the club alone.
Ugh.
Such distaste.

My mouth has become sour as I think of you.
I want to scream *******, but what an unlady like thing to do.

Meh.
I guess I don't care.
*******!
I'll repeat it in my head.
Because boys like you are pathetic.

Whatever.

Here's more words to go unread.
I'm the most complicated person ever and boys ****.
  Oct 2015 Amber Lynn Boyd
mrs kite
i wish I could be beautifully sad like you
a dark velvet blue
suffocating all who try to get close

maybe my depression is only of
my own fabrication, a desperate attempt
to have something in common
with you.
  Sep 2015 Amber Lynn Boyd
ThePoet
Mentally
insane,
psychologically
distorted
I'm physically
in pain,
and I'm
emotionally
contorted

©
People think that the only way to connect
is to have ***,
this generation's biggest tragedy is
mixing up love for lust on the daily
Amber Lynn Boyd Jan 2015
Endless silhouettes upon a moonlit path
My demons have come to play
Enduring symphonies inside my head
They're taking my sanity away

I've been waiting for you my dear
You're locked away in my mind
I am filled with fear
Fear that remains over time

An unkindness empowered by violent delights
Acceptance is key to peace in my mind
The demons have silenced, but I know they remain
For now and forever I am declared insane

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