Drink until I can't help but become sober

You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful. -Amy Bloom

******* away from the bitter ice and snow

But bring me to the warm sand and sunshine

I wish to be gone from the dark

But brought into the light

I want to not feel ponderous

But feel airy

Im ready for sunshine and bliss

More memories I wish not to miss

Take me on the road of forgiveness

I want to see the path of lightness

Show me the way to happiness

I got addicted to you so easily

The cuts and scars are nothing new

They have just gotten deeper

You say this won't happen again  

This time you will put and end to it

But the hatred in your eyes say different

Your words sink deep in my soul

But your punches hit harder

And you enjoy every moment of my hurt

Later you say sorry and you care

"I'm so sorry baby, I won't be like everyone else"

"Will you forgive me if I say sorry"

"I still love you, you mean everything to me"

But that's the saddest of it all

You don't love me

I know I deserve better

A part of me enjoys the pain though

Because the pain

The pain Is the only thing I can
Keep holding on to live anymore

I get that warm fuzzy feeling when you are around

You’re  smile could blind people you make me so happy

When our lips meet and I just melt into you

Even when you are weird and awkward I love you even more

How I am silly around you and you are goofy right back

How excited you are to show me off to everyone important to you

When you whisper talking seriously about our future and I hold on to you tighter

Please never let that go...

I take your hand
As we run though the rigged woods
Running feeling the dead trees crack
Beneath our feet

We stop by a small creek
You take me steadily in your grasp
As we walk further under a small dark bridge

You stop
You turn your head up
To look up at the moon

I feel you against my back
Searching for the stars

The cold winter breeze
Bites at my skin
But your body
Holds me warm

The gentle tickle of your breath against my ear Telling me of a story
The moon, the night, and the stars

When the wolves cry
The darkness sets
And across it all it shines bright

These are the moments
The moments I cherish with
You tonight

All this time telling me you loved me

Kissing me telling me you want a life with me

Haven't felt this good in awhile

To just be said you don't want me

You love me and care about me

But you don't want to be with me

As I cry my eyes out you don't even try to hold me or wipe my tears

You just touch my body

Stroking my hair

And messy kisses on my neck

I feel so used and heart broken

But I let you keep touching my body

Using me and breaking my heart even more

Because you were the last bit of happiness I hoped for and thought I had and now I'm so lost

I have no hope now

I honestly can't bare this pain anymore

This feeling in my heart I cant even explain

I'm broken and you don't even care

I'm done

I honestly am just really sad and hurt. Not the kind of hurt like you fall and scrape your knee on the cold cement. Not the kind of sad when you lay in bed silently sobbing, hoping it will end soon. I feel the kind of sad where the feeling is so much it's almost nothing. That I want to ball my eyes out and scream so bad but instead I blankly stare at the wall for hours on end. The hurt where I can feel my heart aching in my cheats so bad, I want to rip it out. I wish it all could just be over. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm done feeling this anymore.

I just want
to be loved the way
the moon holds the stars

And oh I how I wonder...

... how someone like you
             could love someone like me...

I love it when you gently rub your strong hands through out all my hair

I love it when you look at me with your deep ice blue eyes like I am yours forever

I love it when I can hear your laughter all the way through the house

I love it when as you walk through my door and I run, you pick me up and hold me just as tight as I do

I love it when you play guitar and sing to me for hours on end without a care

I love it when you hold my hand proud everywhere we go

I love that you always take your time telling me just how beautiful I am everyday

I love the way your warm breath tickles my ear as you whisper you love me

I love how passionate you touch every inch of my body, between kisses telling me how perfect I am

I love making love with you, wrapping myself around your masculine body, feeling myself melt underneath you

I love it when we lay and you pull me from behind against your chest, holding me telling me sweet nothings

I love it when you put your hands on my stomache and say, "I can't wait to have a family with you".

I love all and everything you do

But most of all I love you

Because once that love is gone

                      You have to find it again

                                  You just have to have it back

        It's the only thing that will keep you going
               When everything is falling apart