I fear we will never be the same
The thought of that drives me insane
My brain turns and turns
While my heart is scorn
I'm not sure where to go
Which way to turn
The thought makes my heart burn
I need to find you
I need to feel you
I'm right next to yo u
Yet you're miles away
I don't want to stay here
But I'm stuck

My name is zavier
I am trans
I fight every day
So you will recgonize me as a man
I have no shame in who i am
So why do you
If I never told you would never know
You dont know what its like
Call me by my name
It causes you no shame
My pronouns are he
Never were they she
Im done aapologizing
THIS IS ME

Dancing in the rain
It touches my skin
Erases the pain
I think of you with every drop
Each time it touches a different spot

I close my eyes
I see your smile
If I could stop time
I know you would Stay for a while

Ill wipe your tears
I protect you from Your fears
With every Drop I think of you
You are every one of my dreams come true
I love dancing in the rain with you

It shakes hareder then anything you ever felt
It awakens the soul
When it happens you'll know
Losing all control
Becarful letting go
It will take do more then take control
Never letting you go
Youll want more
always wondering what it has in store
All it knows is gore
Takin more and more
Leaving nothing but a rotten core
It never gets bored
So cruel

You can try to lock the door
You can try to hide
It will never say goobye
Belive me I tried
This monster is eating me alive
As I die it strives
Eating everything in its sight
Praying it don't come tonight
If i make till the moring ill be alright
I havent slept in nights
I still see its face

Help.
But no one comes
I try to run
But the mirrors cant hide the monster
Not when its inside
Inside of me.

Whats the point
Sometimes i just want to quit
Whats the point
Im the only one trying
Whats the point
Who cares
Whats the point
Everytime I get closer to the edge
Whats the point
Im so close to slipping
Whats the point
I can feel it creeping
Whats the point
I keep shaking it
Whats the point
I fight it
Whats the point
When you keep letting it in
Its tearing us apart
I warned you But
Whats the point

You took more then you'll ever know
Everyday it crosses my mnd
I hope it will get better with time But I still see it in my mind

If im honest
It means I lied
Being 6 years old
How was I post to know
19 years
Before I relized it wasnt fair
See I was just a kid with messy hair
You told me to pull down my underware
It wasnt just you
And i wish it wasnt true
I was taken advantage of even after you

Sick to my stomach
I couldnt hold it
Crying all night
Putting up a fight
Didnt want to close my eyes
Just incase it was you I saw tonight
This feeling Im feeling isnt right
I hope one day I can sleep threw the night

Love deeply
Love purly
Love surly
Love with all you have
Its not like you can take it back

I let you in
I told you all of my sin
Even after
You wanted more
You promied from the start
This would never end
Each of us bending
Never braking
Always giving
Never taking
I fell in love
No faking
Every kiss
Sends my body shaking
She's breath taking

Mind, body aand soul
You showed me yours
I showed you mine
I felt our souls collide
I watched you touch sky
We were both flying high
Threw the cloud filled sky
Its almost time
Your heart and soul
Is mine
Continuously wanting you all the time
Your the last thing before I close my eyes
Even if I was blind
I could see our souls collide
Mind, body and soul
You showed me your's
I gave you mine

Coursing threw my veins
Trust me
I will never take it in vain
What were doing keeps me sain
I worship your body with my lips
Getting drunk off your love
With just one sip
Has me on edge
Yet I never slip
Your love holds tight
I want this for the rest of my life