The risk I took on you was
calculated
but man,
am I bad at math

I've never had the audacity to wait for a heart
But I imagine your silence was actually you asking me to sleep on it
So I curled up on your chest and learned patience
I didn't want to let the weight of my tears wake your gorgeous face
But, it's just the mornings, they can be so mortal
And you and I often are a bad dream
I imagine we have the same nightmares
I imagine catching you mid scream on a winter night
I swore then that I would kiss the fright from your voice If only you would let me, but that is your choice
If anyone should ever ask, I would say you are a wealth of Sundays
There is honesty in your touch
from the naval up, I have sailed your spine straight as a whistle
marveled at the industry of your mind
Do not blush
Do not look away
hold my gaze

He said he would hold my hand until I let go
He is willing to let go

Hold my gaze
Do not look away
I am not letting go

Just yet

would you take me with you?
before the snow comes
and my schedule freezes
because college will be over
and my days will start to mold
again like they always were
when drunk kisses at the
bar were better than a
lovers because passion
was always absent
can't help but wonder, why is that?
the past is gone and nowhere
near good or rather closer
to evil and shedding
layers like seasons
breaking even into
new embraces that leave
traces in aches in the places
where skin was on skin was on
skin just get in and begin to make
the future look positive when imagining
your blue eyes trapping my insides
twisting and wishing that you'd only
twist more gather into me gather
my hair into your fists oh how
I wish that this mist wouldn't
clear for a year maybe two
what to do? I am blue
and you are green or white
perhaps dark or perhaps light
I really can't be quite sure
you're a blur
dashing
my hearts a plane
crashing into the side of your mountain
mesh with my molding
don't stop holding me
folding me into position
I like a man with a mission
maybe it's the wrong lake that I'm fishing
because there are plenty of fish in the sea
those fish are too big and not as tasty
to fry, tough guy, big guy, just
say hi and stay high with me
one two three don't **** with me
I just want to sing melodies
keep living my fantasies
walking together with
you through the night
grabbing hands it's
alright and I just
might not let go
so quickly this
time because
the warmth that I'm feeling
is that of a heathen and
your advances are chances
at passionate romances
you're a magician
I'm an enchantress

Rip open my skin
Grasp my heart in your rough hands
Steal breath from my lungs

Some days I can't stop thinking about you and some days I wonder why I start.
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