I swear I know how to love

The truth is
it
saddens me to see
that

To see
people of
my past with
people of their
future

Perhaps I am stuck there

The truth is the
jealousy
consumes me
eats me
makes my heart pump
faster
my eyes
almost
tear

But I swear
I know how to love

I dont know
what its like to
love
perhaps thats my own fault
passing on
good ones
but
why settle

I am unsure
of
what is wrong with me
but
I swear
I swear I know how to love

its been
over a year

a year without my heart
being consumed by
the constellations in your eyes
and your hair

I've been searching
for more of them

maybe the stars are
not as bright here

I've used you enough
Maybe im just too crazy
But what else is there

maybe Im sad because Im lonely
maybe its the other way around

maybe I sing because it fills these voids
maybe Im not that good of a singer

maybe you really had good intentions
maybe Im blind

maybe I let them all bother me
maybe I'm numb

You linger on my pillow,
sweet
but mellow,
like figs.

The scent of you,
soft, but
sweet,
like your lips.

I memorize it
and
I wonder what my scent
smells like to you.

I hope it lingers on your pillow,
very sweet,
but mellow,
like figs.