It's so hard
waking up everyday
loved ones not knowing what to say.
It's so hard
when everyone is going about their day
when no one can tell you're crying inside.
It's so hard.

Sometimes you look at the clock and pray
sometimes you hope
that today will be the day
the day you don't wake up.
It's so hard
lying to everyone
lying to yourself
You know you need help
but you're scared
you fear what they will say.

It's so hard
going to sleep at night
hoping and wishing that tomorrow never comes
that you never wake up.
It's so hard
when no one knows how you feel
and those that do, can't help you.
Each day, each night
each minute, each hour
it's so hard.

I didn't mean to fall for you
It was never supposed to happen
We were just meant to be friends
Helping each other out
I was only there as a shoulder
For you to cry on
Or a pair of well tuned ears
To listen to your pain
My job was to be objective
To guide when I was needed
But instead I fell in love
With the way you talked
How you breathed and smiled
I fell for your laugh, your walk
Even the way you cried
This was never meant to happen
Although I'm not sorry it did
I'm a better person for knowing you
And even though I'm walking away
I want you to know
I loved every single second
And I will still continue to love you
Even though it was *never meant to happen

How
do you erase
the demanding thoughts
that float around
your mind

How
do you stop
the howling wolves
that run around
your head

How
do you dim
the frightening scenes
that replay in
your eyes

How
do you release
the haunting cries
that reside in
your heart

How
do you forget
the grueling monster
that lives in
your soul

_

Come take my hand
we’ve not a care
As beauty flows
for us to share

Now reaching forth
so endlessly
As far as any
eye can see

In rainbow fields
where flowers play
Along the fence
soft breezes sway

Of colors bright
and pastel gleam
A butterfly,
a winding stream

While robins sing
in wondrous style
And nature brings
to us a smile

A dream beneath
blue skies above
This day with you
*the one I love

So are her cutesy baby face,
Her twinkling watery eyes,
And her happy harpy voice.

So are her happiest smiles,
Her presence is truly divine,
And blessings for my heart.

So are her heartfelt promise,
Her thought itself is healing,
And even mighty is her love.