The boy bellows his sound...screams loud
“come one come all the affair is now”
The words the nurse said ring hollow so dead
“Cancerous sores”
“Carry on carry on”
For he swears he’ll sleep no more
Night terrors are real and if he survives the fabulous killjoys will suffer greatly...to no ones surprise

To the end with him...dead
Dead he is...have you heard the news
So dead...dead
This is how I disappear he says
The sharpest lives and the sharpest wit
He welcomes you in, to a parade he claims will save us from our sins
I don’t know you from Adam
I don’t love you like a house of wolves
In the distance I hear him
He bellows his joy
He tells the injured to carry on carry on
I hate his voice
His blackened eyes his cancerous sores
Mama says sleep teenage boy
Disenchanted from his famous last words
To carry on carry on
Blood on all the walls
**** all your friends
Heaven help us
My way home is through you
You fabulous killjoys

So before we prey...I’ll hang my head...loathe
Undeserving of loving you...I know
The chastised evil will come home
So before we play pretend...I’ll string up my neck
Sow the undiscovered halo back again...I know
The cherished death blow will be beautiful
When should I go...underwhelming...I’ll hang my head...low
For I know my blackened eyes glow
The silent sirens break the windows
I know what I’ve done is miserable
So before we prey...I’ll play pretend
I’ll hang her head next to mine
I promise the death blow will be beautiful

Northbound...to star island
I’ll go...north
Northbound her movements guide me
Star island...
I’ll travel nowhere but always fear 93 million miles from here
To where it all began
To where it will all end
The red comes down
While I’m spinning round
Round and round her hands in mine
Fireflies fly illuminating the night
The marching band boy sings his joy
Bellows his sound “carry on”
My brides eyes and mine align
Our fingers lock tongues twisted in knots
As the fireflies fade the night remains
All sound calms down there’s nothing now
Just us, each other
The scent of her dress
The prettiest red
The blood stains, mines nothing
Here’s our scene
The world ending...us just dancing
Let’s move slow...walk forward
Northbound to star island
I’ll go...please follow
Soon all the truths will be revealed...

With the best of me yet to come
I answer to no man or god
I am a child inside I answer to no one
In space the stars are all like marbles
Mind as well be gods
So out of reach so out of touch with being a mere mortal
I believe I could be god
Have no fear now for Ive calmed down
I’m no longer throwing rocks
I’m lead by an image and I’ll lead you through the dark
Hold onto me feel my warmth
For you are nothing more than a vessel
A shell of a person
I could be something to believe in
Believe in me and I will set you free

Float up high above to watch myself
The rules say I’m not allowed
But I know how
Lay down...lay as still as you can
This won’t last long
This will only hurt once
Now my child rise up
Sacrifice yourself...I had to let them condemn you to protect the rest
The sheep you count as you sleep
Finally at peace...I love you but I love them more
Their my imperfect side
I try to guide but I’m seen as a lie
An invisible being never seen nor heard
Have faith...believe in dreams
Transverse reality
He sky is everything

With a wicked twist
I propose we do this just once
With feelings in denial and a code of right and wrong
Let’s just live
Be free be alive be what they say we shouldn’t be
Let’s look past genes touch the souls beneath
For one day we will cease to breathe
For one day our blood will run dry
For one day we will be no more than ashes
With a wicked mind
I suggest we go there just once
With feelings of bliss and a renewal of all faith
I suggest we have ***
Let’s let mercy take us
Let’s let death feel helpless as we enjoy each other
Let’s look past skin feel love within
For today I feel sane I feel safe
Hands by my side I lie as I write
For I know your feeble fears
As the devils greatest trick I will take from you the dearest of you
Leaving you a mess
A person
So lifeless like all the rest

With what could have been...but will never be
Nevermore...
With what will become...I will never be
Forevermore...
I will live with my consequences
I will suffer in silence
Her chamber door...
I’ll watch as she sleeps
Her sheets wet from sweat
My dear Lenore...
With the pitch black at my back
I’ll look to the past to fix my future
Forever on...
Who am I to you? We’ll just ignore
Sleep now child the one I most adore
I wish to stop you from aging
Keep you at twelve I must implore
Your nieve movements pale skin so perfect
On this winter night your the one I adorn
With a swift slit of the wrist
My wish can come true
To have you to keep you to hold you my Lenore
Your hand in mine I’ll smile while I realize I’ve become so much more...

The floor boards are torn
I hear laughter I fear noise
Red lights ring out so loud
But yet I’m deaf to the sound
With the windows blasted out
The rain drops drop
The boy sits still
While ropes hang low
He holds her hand
While he demands she follows
Follow him down to the laughing city
Where the people are changing all their minds it’s crazy
Hold on...don’t talk
The walk is dreary unpleasant
But just know this one boy would do anything
For you...for you
I would for you...for you I would loose control
Not look back nor think of tomorrow
Just trust me I know...
We’ll walk for what might feel like forever
Just know the deathblow will be beautiful...

The last thought before the gun shot

I wonder why they want outside
Like as if it’s changed
The airs the same
The memories don’t fade
I believe the sky is the key to time travel...believe...I believe that poison eats air
Do I dare hold my breathe
Do I dare breathe the deceit
The hatred hailing down on me

The last thought before the gun shot

I wonder what his last thought was
Like as if it matters
Like as if he cares...happy...
The memories now fade
I believe something somewhere there’s another me
Do I dare say out loud how desperate I am...now...the spikes rain down
The decisions made were grave
I choose to believe his last thought was happy

Static noise
The riot beyond the walls
The pillars hide the stars
We call for higher planets
Yet we remain still
Not caring that time is everything
As the seasons change the memories fade
Forever lost to the great sky above
I prey for all life
I prey there’s something else
Something...Somewhere...I feel like there’s so much more