Growing up so happy and free

knowing who I wanted to be

as life went on people had changed

to ways I never thought

as I was finding myself, someone found me

I opened up and let him in without knowing a thing

I was so happy until the day that everything went so wrong

he left me and I felt so alone

it wasn’t fair
now I was sad and mad all at the same time

I would always cry at the drop of a dime

my life has changed since then

as I hide my emotions and say I’m okay

I realize that it’s not worth it

this life has taught me more than to be upset

I hope to find someone like you again who will listen

who won’t just leave again

but for now I’ll choose to be happy and free like I used to be

I know that God gave me this life for a reason

so I can live

*happy and free

I was afraid of love
It's just heartaches and sufferings
I forbid myself from falling
Because I know
No one would catch me but the ground
Then there was you

You said you were falling
I was ready to fall in love with you
But when I was falling really fast
That's when I realized
You were not with me
You had a parachute on

I fell
But no one was there to catch me
I loved
And I don't think I could ever love again
Cause Im broken
You've broke me beyond repair

A mind so full, a heart so cold.
So bitter, self hatred starting to unfold.
Blank stare in my eyes, lost in a daze.
My life is like a nightmare, I can't seem to erase.
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
My conscience screaming, My head pounding.
Louder, louder, I can hear it, insanity surrounding.
My veins ticking, My Hearts beating so fast,
Will I survive this, how much longer will this last?
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
I cant get away,
there's no escaping it.
I have to fight it,
I wont give in.
I won't let my ****** up conscience win.