"supression" poems
She will tame me, she cant blame me, when I put a smile upon her face.
He will paw me, he will claw me, but there's still an empty space.
Slow haunting whispers, I can feel her on my ear.
His breath, his warmth, the ever growing fear.
...Like a simpson, I change colour
The ink seeps on to the floor.
Do I stay and feel heart ache?
Or open that cage door?
He comes closer, puts his head against my heart,
A gentle pur, a silent thump, a misfit in the dark.
I reach out, then pull back, scared of his loathsome bite,
Not for lust, or need, or want, but an unworded fight.
It grows within me, like the locks on his mane,
Entwining round, engulfing me; is this what you call sane?
He bares his teeth, but not in anger, a gentle, sweet, supression,
Our eyes will lock, a growl will pass...
A fiery-tempered tension
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Credit to Sarah Larking, who wrote this with me.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 6:49 PM UTC
A Day in my Shoes
_______________________________
How about a day in my shoes;
Where it's true I do have something to lose;
My skin crawls, as my mind aches;
To break the laws and decide my own fate;
My self-expression;
The ultimate weapon;
For the supression;
Is bleak and unending;
And still knowing all this;
Not courage nor strength can get me through this;
All I have to do is;
Be me
But you see;
It's not that simple;
For the lies I told;
For not being bold;
Are festering like a pimple.
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 5:27 PM UTC
For a few days, my pen will remain silent.
My mind will be numb and thoughts won't be violent.
For a few days, the writer inside me will hibernate.
I don't know when he'll return but I'm sure it is going to be a bit too late.
For a few days, I am not going to see the rising sun.
Will remain in the state of inactivity with no joy or fun.
For a few days, my face will look like a corpse devoid of any expression.
Expressing it didn't work out so I'll try the other way - supression
For a few more days, my heart will not be dilating just contracting inside my chest.
Hollowing me from inside, eating me up.
For some days, in peace I'll rest.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 12:06 AM UTC
And yet my page goes blank...Full of A lil bit of nothing and a whole lot of space...Which has turned in to a lot...of white..or blue, red, beige, or black
What ever color the paper is...Emptiness...The beginning stages of depressions...the first wave of creative supression...but then eletric sparks..light waves of electrons flowing from my left lobe to my right hand....From my ego to my id...Reaction...satisfaction...Then ink, lead, chalk, what ever I can grab hold of...blood...I would stain this space with blood...for these words will forever be a piece of me...Forever be the life of me....The death in me...And Words fill up my void..the artisic fasination of a blank page...That has been splattered with musical notes of my rhythm...composer...after composure...chaos...after breath...and then masterpice...Wala the ****** to the story...The finale' to the show...The perfect piece of expression upon the page...And as it is turned...My page goes blank Once again...
Apr 25, 2012
Apr 25, 2012 at 9:03 AM UTC
I scribbled down what I needed to say
Picked up the piece and threw it away
Like there was nothing to say
I've already lost my way
I tried supression of depression
But I wasn't done with the lesson
Can't I end the session
I needed to tend to my depression
I lost my self-expression
Depression was taking possession
The lesson was already in session
The session of depression
It takes my breath away
It kills me everyday
I struggle to find a way
for happy to stay
a permanent gray
I've tried to pray
But all they do is say
fight through another day
What's the delay?
this is only foreplay
Obey
I never fought this hard
But still I remain scarred
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 4:24 PM UTC
stopped drinking alcohol
cuz i was crying
now i feel better
but there's still tears
supression
somehow
didn't happen
i don't know
what the problem is
guess it's just me
and this depression
she really ****** me up
and i barely even knew her
what the ****
happened
to me
that made me
this way
my childhood
was raised
inappropriately
i have a confession
i'm not even drunk
but i feel like
going to the bar
and not remembering
any of this day
just to know
that i can escape
May 9, 2013
May 9, 2013 at 5:31 PM UTC
I never liked full auto
for supression.
For me,
it was three round bursts,
fired quickly.
Sep 16, 2014
Sep 16, 2014 at 7:21 AM UTC
I’m sneezing
But I’m not shooting out snot
Feels like my brain is coming out
As if I had one
I strongly disagree with whoever claims
I’ll become well
Only takes time they say
Because it’s not my cold I’m worried about
It’s my sanity that will blow out
Bits of me in a napkin
Never relaxing until it’s not tragic
Mostly reading to avoid the traffic
Of emotions
Like rage and sadness
Too bad my depression doesn’t come with a description
Because I would of returned it
The minute I got it
To avoid my sudden supression of feelings
That I think bring
Too much of a commotion
To my self conscious.
Nov 15, 2018
Nov 15, 2018 at 11:30 AM UTC
You call offensive speech hate speech
You believe in unnatural ideas and that they are infact natural and that you have been programmed to accept unnatural behaviour
You shut down debate and free speech -
Unless it is ideas you like and resonate with.
You believe everyone else is stupid because they don't have the same view as you
You believe what your idols say without question
You dont tolerate the beliefs of others
You believe that their propaganda is harmful and a programming tool for the sheep.
You believe everyone should think like you or else!
You hate people because of their culture or belief system does not match yours
You want to rewite or erase history
You preach people with the opposite views hate you, are insane and are to be feared and overcome.
You belive you are entitled to use extreme violence, hate speech, supression and abuse because your cause is just.
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 11:37 PM UTC
You call offensive speech hate speech
You believe in unnatural ideas and that they are infact natural and that you have been programmed to accept unnatural behaviour
You shut down debate and free speech -
Unless it is ideas you like and resonate with.
You believe everyone else is stupid because they don't have the same view as you
You believe what your idols say without question
You dont tolerate the beliefs of others
You believe that their propaganda is harmful and a programming tool for the sheep.
You believe everyone should think like you or else!
You hate people because of their culture or belief system does not match yours
You want to rewite or erase history
You preach people with the opposite views hate you, are insane and are to be feared and overcome.
You belive you are entitled to use extreme violence, hate speech, supression and abuse because your cause is just.
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 11:39 PM UTC