Is this the hardest thing I’ve ever done?
Watching us crumble,
The foundation we built
Now cracked,
Splintered,
Like my heart.
Heartbreak isn't new,
But not like this -
I’m shattered and wrecked.
You're my confidant,
My mpenzi,
My darling,
My handsome man,
My kindhearted super achiever,
Joyful, yet so melancholic
Emotional, yet so light-hearted
Strong,
And Vulnerable,
Brave,
But also so afraid,
What are you so afraid of, darling?
I wanted to shield you from the hurt,
Seeing you break shattered me in ways I couldn’t express.
My tears never came,
Only the sharp, silent ache,
A dagger twisting deep within.
Why do we have to say goodbye?
You belong in my heart
And I in yours.
I don’t know what comes next,
But I wish we could turn back -
Undo this hurt.
Yet, I wonder: do you truly love me?
Or are you afraid to admit it,
Caught in a complicated web?
Still, I love you,
Beyond all doubt.