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Carsyn Smith Jul 2014
There’s a third space
That’s not quite here
Yet not quite there.
It’s a dark place
With no clear light
Other than the fireflies
That hover close listening,
To our quiet whispers
To our quick mumbling
And to the declarations.
There’s a slight drizzle,
But I don’t mind,
Because your voice is
      My umbrella
      My blanket
      My everything.
Close my eyes, listening
To the muffled backg­round,
It makes me think
I’m there with you.
But not quite there –
In a third         space,
With you beside me.
I don’t hangup first
Because I want to
Listen for your guard
As it falls         away
Some where in         that

                 Third space.
Why won't Hello Poetry add my tabs :-/??
Sister Rosetta Tharpe licks her wounds and oils her cords, a casual observation to start things off, to jump-start the mind with the cables that undoubtedly fuelled Ms. Tharpe's canon, or cannon if that works in context. Just something, anything, to jolt the good old stream-of-consciousness into action, for my mind to finally get the guts to 'inspect' that "empty" rathole where the guns of the 'enemy' are waiting in vain, my mind thinking (by itself) that if I wait long enough I can starve them out. But my mental adversaries are cunning and adept, able to go without food for days, weeks, months, eating moths, worms, rats, and slitting the snakes open to drain their juices. The snakes, the snakes, the snakes, my ultimate fear; the snake around my neck. Hung on the scaffold, standing ovation. Maybe I can burn them out..?

There we go, I writhed you loose, you ******.

I click a four-count in my silent mind, and I crawl in, like the good soldier I am, thinking all the time that I should have read Manual of the Warrior of Light by Paulo Coelho; without a doubt, judging by the title alone, it would have done me good. The last click of the four-count is the cocking of the hammer on my tool, be it a torch or a pistol; proxy war gunslinger, existential riot. Nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, ******* long nights in the hole, nothing to hope for once I escape, but another batch of darkness, and another painted face, asking "Are you okay?" ME answering in my male hangup "Why wouldn't I be?"

Now onto the metafiction cliché:
You can always escape, but you can never hide, like the cheddar cheese villain in just about every movie known. And never were it more true. Contemptuous nature can lie benign in the brain, prostate, or breast for a long time before it becomes malignant; and escape is always an option to prolong the inevitable. But I come from a people of brooders, an own ethnicity in its entirety devoted to judgement and yuppieism. There we go; another red-dot-underline to signify the royal introduction of another previously foreign '-ism.' Standing on the conveyor belt, side by side in a circle **** of prejudicial rhetoric: "Everyone are so unpleasant and gross," comic-book thought-bubbles in every direction, through every head, like malicious rays from the omnipotent sun of groundless hatred.

No sun for the land of the brooders.
No real sun.
But it will still fry your skin.
4th degree burns.

Return of a friend;
Return of a fiend.
Might be both, and it might be neither, but it doesn't matter, as all eyes are fixed on their feet, and the few inches of pavement in front to avoid any collision.
Kara MacLean Nov 2010
Hollow:
like the pitcher you used to pour me my drink
Scared:
as you walk towards me like a demon; possessed
Frozen:
like the ice you used to keep the alcohol just the right temperature

Until i pass out on your bed like a baby at nap time
Time has gone by, you're scared and you even cry
Your uncle cried too
You drove me back home as if we were mourning the death of christ
And I walked out
And I walked
And I walked
I walked through my front porch with makeup smudged
Eyes of a raccoon, unnoticed as I make my way upstairs
Blind, as I shower away the marks, the pain, the evidence
And I fall asleep again, on my bed
like a baby at nap time
Awake:
and I see your name on the screen of my phone
Sorry, you say.
And I hangup.
I put my phone on my dresser, and I scream into my pillow:
How could I be so stupid
How could I be so ignorant, mindless, dense
How could I watch myself be taken?
Well guess what?
You didn't take a THING from me
My soul is bound to me and my heart is kept safely in its case
Like your football trophy
You can take my virginity, but you can NEVER take my dignity
And I stand tall
And a year later I stand tall
And I grow older and move past those sleepless nights
And I fall asleep in my bed
like a baby at nap time
Because I can sleep, knowing that you will be the one left with the pain
Glass shards from your trophy fly through the room like bullets
And your heart breaks for it.
And you suffer sleepless nights for each and every women who fell onto your mattress.
By: Kara MacLean
Gotten out, I’ve saved me
How funny you’re still around me
Are you real, I think I’m dreaming
Ice cold, thats how they perceive me
Dose after dose its all haze
At dawn we speak
Nowhere to go, let me hear the voice of finally ok

It was summer, i saw you
Smiling, you wished me goodnight
Nothing more was expected
Nothing less was wanted

You posted about it the first time around
It all maybe in my head
But I felt that way too
“Normal conversations, yet so different”

“Forget your past” you say
Talk to me about your future
I’m probably not in it
But your sound gives me quite the wonder

Quite a wonder why
As we speak the rest of the world disappears
I wonder why
The thought of you paints everything black and white
Leaving behind 4 brown eyes shining under the gloomy night

You became a shade of yellow &green
I wonder why  Im up waiting for you to hangup
Fighting the urge to ask you for a few more
Friendly is all it could ever be

Call me, I enjoy it when we do
It’s annoying when I ask all the time..
..If I am
Yet you’re still up as your eyes fall asleep

Zzz

Trying to wish you another goodnight

By:Zoulaikha
Daniel Mar 2018
Father forgive me
For you know that I am always sinning
I take no interest in partying with liquor,
******* up my system

Excuse my language
That's a hangup for how ******,
I've been feeling

I'm sorry
I feel no attraction,
You know that its been a minute
Cause I've been so alone for so long

Losing interest
you won't find no better than this,
I swear girl if you leave
just let me know
so it won’t hurt bad
when you move

Tell me why i'm waiting
For somebody,
That couldn't give a **** about me
Oh,
Oh you wouldn't.
For everyone who's feeling this kind of damage, I'm also with you.
J J Jun 21
1.

And I wish it never ended but I moreso wish you were different.
Thinking back, I may be the one that messed things up for good one too many times and the one who clinged too much, nonetheless:
You want to remain close enough to be a passive enemy
You twist the narrative with half truths that ignored my clarification,
How pitiful I must seem now your rosé tints got lifted and situations happened and our differences clashed and outgrew each other in the span of hours with every subsequent problem.
Now you can cry victim and bully without remorse make-pretending I never felt anything for you? Like I
   was the heartless one, the one who never loved.

O Romeo where art thou? And why must thou be the seed of my perfect enemy? O well, I know I’ve loved stronger than you’re capable of.
Your words can’t hurt me anymore.
We only know each other through what we told.
Expose you me and the rest of the gang, run yourself dry, my disfigured twin-flame of worthlessness; no exaggeration,

You’re the meanest person I’ve ever known and it’s so funny when that spite isn’t aimed at you
But when it gets there you’re then such a pest; biting gum-deep into the skin then crying

to be left alone again, yet never letting go.

Remember when we spoke nonstop for several hours on call?
“Do you feel that glow?” Did you feel the hangover of us going passed our limits?
Was that all fake? Did you ever feel anything at all towards me or were you just that lonely?

I really hope I never know the answer, you make me sick as a person…

2.

Why should you go on killing yourself out there arguing with her on public facebook timelines? just killing yourself over and over to prove a point against someone
Who’s already long decided the audience’s verdict on you?
Our moods pendulum and swat up and down so sensitive who is who I regret every thing I ever told you, *****

I’m glad my face makes your stomach turn. You drag me outside just to spit at me in the crowd.
I’ve never made up after breaking up before, it became a daily occurrence for us two…
Or near enough…
O poor you two, what can I say?
Act your age and stop falling in love over the phone screen.
Your heart’s not broken, it’s just sick of being empty, I’m glad we got to know each other
Even if I’m worse off than when you first met me
O well, O ******* well, the saints too are calling in. It’s okay
If you cared more than your love did, at the end of the day dawn roosts
Waiting to swell the sky. In other words: it’s a chance encounter and familiar enough outcome that you really should be used to by now.

3.

I just wish it was me but it’s not and that’s okay too, I just kinda wish we got to meet
But god knows in the space of a week I’d seen enough of you, and you me.
I kinda miss you still, I’m in pieces, there will never be another like us
But I guess that was always just words to you,
and I’m weak as the ******;
But fate brought us to together to argue infitum, privately then on your digital stage, uglier and uglier until it has to end;
**** it; means nothing, I’ve become you a dozen times over, I can ignore you just as heartlessly.

You asked what’s the matter but you can’t handle being the problem, can you?
And in hindsight I was the problem more often than not, O well **** it; means nothing

I guess it never did to you after all, babe,

You live to hurt and I live for pain, babe.

How long did we have until too much was said?
I swear you loved half as intently as you hated, and babe, that’s really saying something.

For a second I got lost, I trusted you like a lover worth moving too fast for;

Everything I gave you is conscrewed or it’s the truth cropped and bare for the world to see. What else can I say or do other than make it clear that I’m speechless?

I’m so glad that we met and I’m so glad it’s over
I miss you so much and I’m so glad it’s over

In the end you hate me O well it’s over.
Rough draft, may delete or sharpen up later. Is this even poetry? Idk. Idc. I spoke to this woman for just over a month? And this feels like a nasty divorce. Some lines and a basic ‘structure’ figured out, picked at and shaped over the last few days. Crimson and clover/OVER AND OVER…

Ciao ciao.
I'm a hopeless romantic,
with no one to romance.

I hangup my charm
like a boxer hanging up gloves.

Because you hurt me,
I gave you my all and you took it,
never giving in return.

I'm left
hoping,
wanting,
desiring,
and I don't know when
I'll be able to love freely again.
Give me a fast horse
and dark purpose
and watch as I burn
down the night time sky.
I'll pull sack cloth
across the cosmos
darkening the starlight
and bringing the evening to a hue
closer resembling pitch.
I'll take a fireplace poker
from it's rest and raise it up
and poke holes to
let the light through.
I'll make new constellations
of pin ****** and let
you name each and every one.
I will always be here
as long as you never leave.
I'll always be true
so long as you always believe.
No one will ever hurt you
my love
while I'm here and alive.
I'll love you until it hurts
until neither of us can survive.
I'll love you in absence of light
and long after hope has died.
Give me a fast horse
and dark purpose
and I'll chase the dark from the skies
I'll track it to whatever dim cave
in which it then hides
and bring light to a world
full of outrageous lies.
And if you'll search me out
'neath that bridge on the outskirts
of our lonely, haunted town
I'll love you for always
for as long as I'm around.
I don't know if lost things
can heal completely once found
but I've been lost for so long
in such a state that I would
gift you forever for a song.
A sweet deal, should you
love me back
a tad massive in scale, I guess,
but serious as a heart attack.
Give me a fast horse
and dark purpose
my love
and nothing will save me
from the great waiting fall.
But, I'll go down with a smile,
I've been so alone, afterall.
Give me a fast horse
and dark purpose
a smile, a working of the jaw,
a hangup and an intractable law.
I have a loss, a win, a draw.
One ounce a hope my fatal flaw.
Give me dark purpose
and a way out of here.
Without you I'm empty of cheer.
An escape rope, to make myself clear
I've somewhere to be, somewhere I fear.
Give me a fast horse
and by evening I'll be long gone.
The curtain can close, finally drawn
around nights wasted in endless hold on
before the breaking light of dawn.

— The End —