"flashforward" poems
I've had one?...two?...many nights of waking up not knowing.
closing my eyes and imagining god was dumbstruck staring.
fixating at the ceiling and all i can think to say "It all started last week...
standing on a cool dark step she said words directed to hurt aimed at me.
I just took it not saying a word not defending a thing, still trusting her.
All the things we were just slipped away and my vision she blurred.
Imagining she needed space, i left for a bit came back and told her i love her.
she did nothing it rolled off of her as if hadn't even said a thing.
this is the life i made, i gave my heart, she smiled and gave me nothing.
flashforward, and she does something wild, makes a mistake and plays the victim.
she did something wild, and i was too afraid to ask if she kissed him.
you're reading this and maybe you know who i am talking about.
chances are and reality is you don't know this person, i didn't even
Aug 13, 2012
Aug 13, 2012 at 1:10 AM UTC
You slipped right through my fingers
(I never really had you any way)
I could swear up and down you don't care for me. It makes things so much easier.
Flashback to you kissing my freckled cheek while I'm asleep. Telling me words I've save for later. I'll turn them over and over in my head like worry stones.
Flashforward to you sitting with me in a crowded place. "We're just friends," you say evenly. I try my best not to squirm. Because we were never just anything.
I knew I'd pay the price for this. But who was I to give up a body that fit so well into mine?
You dowsed my ribs in gasoline when you first spoke words of your affection. You consistently threw lit matches at me.
Now you recoil and Jesus Christ, how do I begin to put myself out?
Do I even want to?
You show me a match you've saved for later. I don't know if able to reconstruct myself for the hell of it just to watch it burn later
Don't think I wasn't destructive before you. I am, and I will be infinitely. I am thinking of how my smoke built up in your lungs. Exhale now. Doing what's best for all involved parties.
"Do you know what it was like being around you, knowing I couldn't hold you?"
In that moment I'm certain somewhere in another life I would have loved you. Because all I ever wanted was the kind of romance I could write about it. The kind of sadness and longing that settles behind your ribs. If it had been a book I would've dog eared us and wept. But this is my life, real life and I can't just this back on the shelf.
Jun 28, 2013
Jun 28, 2013 at 4:29 AM UTC
A year and a half spent in bliss,
Flowers and kisses,
He adored her so.
Sapphire and diamond ring
Tied to the collar of a plush puppy.
"Oh my gosh! I love it! I love you!"
He didn't know it yet,
But she was going to break his heart.
Flashforward
He told her she was pretty, he told her she was great.
She couldn't do anything but lie to his face.
"Yes, I love you too," wasn't the truth.
He didn't know it yet,
But she was going to break his heart.
Flashforward
It was a warm April afternoon,
Like a rickety faucet,
The feelings were beginning to leak out of her.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” she whispered.
“I don’t understand [gasp] why you’re doing this [gasp] to me,” he sobbed.
And he knew it now,
She was breaking his heart.
And she knew it now,
She didn’t love him,
anymore.
Jan 26, 2013
Jan 26, 2013 at 1:33 PM UTC
Magically I entered her room
Half closed, half open
I walked further
Brownie girl
Beautifully
Waving
Magic
Shhh
Dark dragons in her speechless eyes
Sizzling hot like a piece of cake in her sweet mouth
Going for sweet miracles
With her lips
For sure!
Curing my curious heart
Step by step
Turtle dance...
Begin
Musically
Turtleneck...
A flashback
Duo in same land
Thousands years back
Making sweet poison
Unknowingly
Experimental hazards took place...
Love goes beyond imagination...
Kissing fish eyes...
Monsoon special dinner
We met again
Flashforward
By
and
by
Abracadabra in her eyes...
She told me stop...
And
I told a lie
In a game of truth and dare
Then I
Presented her
A pair of daffodils
flowering eyes to eyes
With fire and ice
Again experiment
Begin
Let's see
She told me
Silently...
A magic book in her left hand
Magically rotating right hand
Butterfly clips
Brown curly hairs
waving with beats of fan rotation
Necklaces of my mind
Blooms
...
A sweet venom in the table
Fall...
Drop by drop
Experiments goes on and on
Sometimes present...
Past and future...
Travelling
Secrets
Unrevealed...
I asked her
tell me the magic O dear...
She said " close your eyes"...
And whispers in my ear
Drumming my heart
Don't tell..
Shhh
.
Candles lighted...
Waving
.
.
.
Flickering
Shhh
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 2:31 PM UTC
😭😭It all ended in smoke😭😭
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I won't be very gentle, If I shouldn't say Goodbye .
We have gone through Countless hustle, bustle, But your heart and memory still fully dry.
You've passed through double-puzzle,
so do I.
Not only with your bubble trouble,
But also with covered shadow-lies.
Flashback! You seemed quite humble,
very stunninng beautiful butterfly.
Fearlessly I approach you and stumble,
with your cradle lullaby.
Flashforward! I had Bible when I fall, knowing it would give me an audible sigh.
Not because I never fall or fail to fall,
But had fear to fall in love with my Ally.
On 14th of February I recall,
Reciting my first best poem, "I comply."
Followed by Endless texting and calls,
I cercrifise my heart to be a twisted pie.
Like an horrific mathematics table,
I felt proud criming it, wasted time rhyming love sci-fi.
Our relationship was like an American football,
Where modification was to be held to qualify.
I was left in the fog of a Temple,
Like a frog, waiting for your magnifying Justification to standby.
Was too late to clarify the jungle-rumble,
Coz you left me in a cage tongue-tied.
I never get your co-operation, So our love passed by.
Now probably, I write this last letter to you to say good-bye
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 2:09 AM UTC