When everyone's started to be an eyesore,
When everything made me swore,
Feelin' ****** wherever I go,
Should I just follow the flow?

Nothing much to be said,
I'd rather kept silent;
and let the noise stayed in my head,
No one cares,instead
being ignored is what I get.

My heart is filled with hatred,
My ego is not going to be shattered,
My voices are unheard,
Feels like to rip everyone's shirts!

I tried to calm myself down,
I repeated it for one more round
and I heard a sound
That happiness is not easily to be found.


a.b

Tired of the lies
Tired of the weakness I feel inside
So many years
So much time
Effort to just get fcked
Wouldn't it be my luck
Lucky enough to fall in love with my best friend
Took me three years to let you in
Didn't immediately allow the love to flow
Scared to lose a friend
But ended up gaining a lover
3 years together and you made me a mother
Beautiful daughter
Smart as fck
Then you started fcken up
The lies just to get what you want
What was the purpose
Of making me happy to play me like a game
Being in love wasn't enough in your brain
I'm tired of the mistrust and hurt
I don't think I will ever love again
But why did you do this to me , my best friend ?
Why does it feel like I belong in your arms but you hurt me and drive me insane ?
Why does it feel like regardless of all the games when we touch we are meant to stay ?
No one attracts me in any which way
But I'm letting go of all ties
I never want to get hurt with all the lies
Time heals all they tell me
All the same
How can you forget someone who impacted your life in so many dramatic ways . . .
Staying strong and never looking back cause what the heart wants hurts me real bad . .

Where did you go?
My strong grandfather
lying dead in his coffin
still and lifeless

Once the picture of manliness
strength, masculinity and health
now a lifeless corpse

Like a human sized robot
with a miniature pilot
a pilot that simply left
and a biological suit just lies there

Unable to even open his eyes
or move a muscle

I don't understand death
I don't get what it is
The pilot leaves and goes where?

Alone in a room
with a white coffin
and my grandfather's corpse
I stand and try to get a hold on the moment

Leaving me fcked up
Searching for meaning

I go to the washroom to freshen up
The bar is loud
I smell something familiar
Smells like you
It smells like you
Comfort
I don't want to lose you
I'm sorry
I'm ******, I know
We're fcked
We know

i don't know man but  life has 2 b a good thing or else i am fcked i mean you 2 are fcked we all are fcked so lets all hope life is inherently good man for every body everything  everywhere every time

Drunk with evening dew,
and the wind blows cold as midnight nears
the white light on the edge of our queen sized minds
and then we fcked
and his voice choked the warmth of tenderness;
in spite pursued
how far away
what they seem
when do we arrest he explosion
of which came partly disguised their own concerns.
After dinner she remained in bed sight
sought for quantities of absent lovers
upwards each prose
disclosing underneath the dawning gray

theirs not much out here you get what you see  somehow that feels good that its all fcked

my showers, stinging
my meals, none
my friends, equally as fcked up
my mind, hollow
my heart, beating
my purpose, lost
my scars, visceral
my will, dead
my sleep, awakening
my dreams, comforting
my reality, daunting
my life, ending.

Why is that they can never seem to stay? Why is it always something wrong with me? Why is the feelings that I feel always go wrong when they're supposed to be real? Why is love so hard for me?  They leave they come and gone in a week. Is this normal tell me please because I just cant put my heart at ease.
You know catching feelings are easy. Me Loving someone it comes easy. They don't have to do much but see me. So Why can't it work out for me? You know I just cannot take it. The fake ****. The lies it's all breaking. They come and go every weekend so please tell me why won't someone come see about me. Come see about me.

Alan was my first love above it all. He had me there with him through it all. Knew if he ever needed anything I would be there but the love between us just kind of went bare.Fcked up and got pregnant and I wanted to keep it. Wanted to see the three of us just living in secret. You had other plans and they didn't include me. So why keep a baby if you didn't even love me?


You know catching feelings are easy. Me Loving someone it comes easy. They don't have to do much but see me. So Why can't it work out for me? You know I just cannot take it. The fake ****. The lies it's all breaking. They come and go every weekend so please tell me why won't someone come see about me. Come see about me.

Daylan was my next met him at a party. He called me cute and that's how it got started. We hooked up the first night and it was all great. Until he slowly started realizing I was a mistake. I started calling his phone He quit hitting me up. Had things to do...so I can shut up. Nowadays he just texts me because he just wants to fck. I know it's wrong and i know I shouldn't do it but there's something so comforting about another human.

Sean was my last and let me tell you girl. Fell head over heels I swear he was my world. Drove in his truck and he held my hand. Asked for nudes and i sent them even though I shouldn't have. I started to believe he was different because of the way that he acted. Made me feel like we could have some sort of attachment. The second we fcked is when it all went down because I can tell he just didn't want me around. Stopped answering texts don't reply to phone calls. I don't exist to you. Nope not at all.
Out of all the **** here I guess you could say I've learned three valuable lessons. 1- Don't force anyone to stay in you're life. If they wanna leave let them. It could possibly save your life. 2- Take time for yourself. Don't move on too quickly. Don't open your legs for someone that just calls you pretty. 3-Speak your mind and don't be a fool. Don't let them make excuses and let you be the fool. Whatever heartache is their you'll get through it eventually. Find someone who loves you and really fcking needs you. You'll get happiness eventually.

i wanna b able 2 describe every fcking thing every fcking time and i feel funny that you are all so fcked

iff truth for humanity is inherently badd  then my dear friends we are all fcked that is it we are fcking fcked for all times to fcking come

Cambodia Burma etc etc still fcked

chances are give or take every body is fcked sad may b true

lett mi bring little joyss in your lives consider this i m fcked i m stupid there you go feel better

iff lov is a pretense then we are fcked doomed man for ever

every thing i write turns into poetry that's sad n fcked upp

what makes people such ******* there has too b an explanation for people's nature period some thing is outt off whack people are fcked but exactly where does it come from

god exists cause im fcked and i need god

iff god doesn't comes  for me we are all fcked then cause then he ain"t gona come for you either you see the _magic_ logic
here

when my dad is worried that is when i know i m fcked___GOFIGURE