A feeling so void of anything it's hard to explaine it,
A feeling that catches you at any moment even when you know where you are,
It's not the phiscal sensation,
It's the mental taxation,
Where am I going,
How did I get here,
Where are you,
Why have you gone.

Lost

Hey Mr. I used to say
Hows your morning
hows your day 

Your my wisdom my teacher my caregiver

When I need you, you said you'd be there
 
I did my best as a kid to give you attention and appreciation for the simple life I lived

Presents and notes to show I cared
 
Thank you cards of admiration and words of ill always be there

I was a kid, it was pretty much all I could give
 
Mr. you said one afternoon were going out to dinner when I get home
then I remember how you bailed
That’s ok Mr. I know your busy  
You would say then Mr., maybe tomorrow if time permits me
 
I remember Mr. a few times you said get ready in a while we will go shopping… 

But we never did 
Maybe tomorrow Mr. said  

I know now its better not to hold my breath 

Help me pick up this house Mr. said 

But I am tired and on my way to bed…
 
Ill do it tomorrow I promise 

To that Mr. replied tomorrow never comes
 
And he went on to explaine, tomorrow there will be tomorrow… And another one…
 
Out in the world now 
No longer a girl...
 
Hey Mr. I  hate to ask… 
But I need your help and I need it fast 
The bills are do, my checks on its way but I need to pay my bills today 

I know tomorrow my check will arrive I can pay you first thing in the morning
 
I remember you were fast to say I'd  help you.....

but you would learn nothing and then you would say...
 
you say you will pay me tomorrow…  
but I know better if you need money now tomorrow you will be no better off

Sorry Mr. your probably right…  
I'll be ok its just one day and one night...

you were strict all my life, but you taught me well to never count on anyone…
never…
not ever in my life will I be optimistic

I'll never be anything, but protected and shelterd

forever never free all my days...

when I was a kid...

I remember it all to well

you gave me what I needed… 
and nothing els 
no memories of fun
no memories of any extra attention...

sometimes I feel you as cold as ice  
Mr. I remember I'd  often look at you twice
 
You never smiled you were always in a rush
 
I was a child and in the way… 
Way to much... 

Mr. I wish I learned your lesson sooner
that you were a promise maker...  
and most importantly a promise breaker
 
I know you may have not meant it,
but finaly…
I finaly learned your lesson, Tomorrow never never comes
 
And Mr. when you say Ill be there for you tomorrow…
 
I know now tomorrow never comes 

Still Mr.
I love you today… 
I love you forever,
but never tomorrow.. 
Never ever
 
Ill continue to wait though for you to come around to all the love I gave

All my love you never found 

Ill wait today…  
I'll wait forever 
Ill even wait for you tomorrow again  
even though I know tomorrow will never end……

Even if you were an accident
I can never say I regret you
You cracked open my soul
and showed me the nastiness that lives there
That only you have the power to uncover
You taught me that not every intention is good
That not everyone can be saved
That life bring about ways and answers you cannot explaine
But for the moments we were happy I will cherish
I will continue my path with an understanding of never allowing someone to lavish onto the evil I didn't know I had
But to clean it with new lessons life is sure to bring along

I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life

My dear father
I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life

I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life

I feel so unsure
My dear father
I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I  believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because  I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life

I feel so unsure
My dear father
I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life

My dear father
I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life