Growing up happened faster than I thought it would;
Now I pay bills and visit my parents.
I sleep in this recliner where I would stay up late,
Talking on the phone with liars until I fell asleep.
"Dulcet tones into a receiver," I called them before.
Now I know better.

My feelings aren't hurt anymore,
And now I've forgiven almost everything.
I'm too strong now for the backbiters of the past,
And they've grown into harmless strangers
Like we all do.

Sometimes when I hear that song,
I feel the hurt again, but that's all it is;
A feeling, fleeting, gone by the double bar line,
And I feel so much better.
I cry much more for happiness these days.

Growing up is happening so quickly,
And now I'm waiting in the recliner on an engagement
That will have the harmless strangers smiling politely.
Their feelings aren't hurt anymore
And we all know better now.

I'm tired of all these fake backbiters
Their petty tongues can't ******* desire
It lies beyond these dives and old tires
Beyond the earth and the funeral pyre
Cause every pair of friendly eyes
Contains a knave, a *****, a spy
They salivate on the juice of your mistakes
Pry open your wounds, so they can smile
This wicked little town is full of dreamers
Local hopefuls, kind souls and believers
Also known as calumny beamers
Bankrupt spirits, synthetic schemers
So pardon me if my presence I detract
Rather face the Tree than a talebearer's fact
You curse my organs, my ornamental torment
So from the Shadow, I'll never look back
Humiliation is the purest ruse
It's all fun and games until someone gets truth
But these stigmatas will turn to bruises
And from this place, I'll be destitute
A real friend
Always gathers up ammo
Incase the end comes
Guess I never got the memo

Facing reality to night and I
Don’t like what I see
A man setting on a big throne
With his eyes pointed at me.
So many people standing around with
Their heads hanging low
I’m afraid what the Lord may say
So in my heart I must go
I tried to hide behind the crowd
Didn’t want to know my fate
The lord cried “come back!”
For you my child it’s too late

I starred at the other people faces
And we all had the same look
There’s no hope for us when
God judge us from his book
Liars, backbiters, fornicators, and all
Slipping in the darkness, led to your fall
My book is open so said the Lord
Why didn’t you stop and examine your heart
You can’t be with me, I forbid all sin
I warn you daily before your end

My book will judge your every secret fault
Everything you took, everything you bought
Beyond this door lies another door
Once entered, your time is no more
Every secret thing you thought you hid
Every no good thing you ever did
My book is open to send you in a mist
Where you will never ever exist
You hated your neighbor, lied to your friend
Took church tithes, and didn’t amend
You took from the poor and didn’t care
You ignored me every time I were there

You slept at night with lust on your mind
I tried to correct you time after time
My book is open to judge you and I will
Your time is up, your faith now sealed
My word will warn your family and friend
If they fail to listen; my book will open again.

You rope an unaware girl in
coerced, intimidated, brainwashed
you fabricated, distorted, misinformed and beguiled her
fed your untruths and garnered 'solidarity and revolution
played out your usual skits of 'divide and rule'
scripted her with your drama of chaos
you sprinkle your poison liberally
your discontent and disharmonious bile you offer generously
And expect me to hate or take to heart that which is not of my doing, and totally undeserved or earned
or become your puppet on a string
As with a lot of others
they now know you better
they've seen  living examples of
your hate, your bigotry, your prejudices
and your chicanery, they've seen your underbellies
They laugh and talk behind your backs
not to your faces
because you have home advantage
and because they now see more clearly
that you are vicious backstabbers and backbiters
cowardly liars and foul ***** instigators
ignorant haters
you can't fool all of the people all of the time
The girl, like the others were
coerced, intimidated, brainwashed
you fabricated, distorted, misinformed
they are all thinking
Who are the ignorant hateful, envious, inadequate fools here