How did she move on so soon?
She used to tell me she loves me a lot..
She used to tell me that she'll never leave me or let me go without a fight..

Why did she let me walk away without a conversation?

Why did she become someone else's when I said I'll come back?

How did she date 2 different guys in a short period in which I'm still trying to recover, lost in her thoughts..

Everything I do..
Everywhere I go..
Everything I touch..
Everything I see..
It all just reminds me of her!!!

Well can we just say that I learnt people go? No matter how much they promise or how much they say they won't go.. They leave when their part in our lives are over. They leave us with a million memories.. Memories which when thought of make us cry..

Just when I thought everything is over in my life,
Then came in an angel,
Different from the usual,
A girl who's so broken from inside,
Someone I want should smile when I'm around,
She shares a lot of things in common with me,
I think I've been waiting for her all this while,
She is someone I can not stop talking to,
A person for whom I again started staying up late nights,
Not even a week of knowing her feels like a lifetime,
I want to fix her up,
I want her to love herself again,
After all this is done, I'll stay by her side the way she would want me too..

The night goes by,
The clouds move on,
The rain falls down,
The ear phones remain in my ears,
My eyes remain open,
Trying to figure out why?
Why does life give us what we don't want?
Why don't we get what we want?
I move away from this topic,
Realizing just, not everything has an answer..

I log on after a few days,
With the slightest hope,
That someone might be thinking about me,
On this very day.

How wrong was I about her?
She, who I thought had changed,
She was the only one to think about me today.

Maybe as a friend,
But a thought is a thought,
And sometimes,
A thought is enough to make you smile..

She's like a tigress, walking past my life everytime.
Making me fall for her always.

I thought I love her.
If I did, then why'd I always fight with her for dating someone else?
Why'd I act bad with her?
Why'd I not be more kind to her?
Why'd I not stay out of her life when I planned to leave it rather than her abandoning me?
Because I realised I can't stay without her.
Because I realised she was the tiny missing piece of my puzzle.

Didn't her happiness matter to me more?
If it didn't I wouldn't listen to her keep on telling me about him.
If it did I'd not listen to her endless talks.
If it did I'd not see the pics of him which she kept sending me.
If I didn't I'd not tell her how to convince him.
If it didn't I'd not even have read all the screenshots that she sent me.

If you ask me what I got after all this?
I'd say nothing. All I got was hate.
All I got was to listen to her tell me bye.
All I got was her telling me to forget it.
All I got was her ego.
All I got was her attitude.
All I got was me to hate myself because of whatever I did.

For all I got is to hate world,
to hate humanity,
to hate love,
to hate appreciation,
to hate living..

I wanna live more.
I wanna be part of something much better than her.
I wanna forget her.
I wanna be me again. I wanna be the real me.
I wanna be happy.
I don't wanna regret my actions. I don't wanna regret loving anyone.
Is that too much to ask?