we mistake a small cold
for a chronic illness leading to death
we mistake a bad grade
for failed success that leads to a job at McDonald's
we mistake a bad haircut
for a complete unattractiveness that leads to being alone
we mistake an awkward look
for a social downfall in today's botched society
we mistake a bad day, a horrible week, an ugly year
for a permanent lifestyle leading to suicide
the sun will come up
don't end the day before it has finished

Flying up high
in the sky
with the flag
of our pride
don't be afraid

trace the outline of my being

trace my joys and my sorrows
trace my fear of the morrows

trace the way I sit still when you notice me

draw my feeling
draw my love

trace the passion I'm ashamed of

trace me

why am I
trying to finD
the sin Of
a point iN
the uniT circle
wheN i could be
Eating my lunch
in thE hallway
with frienDs i dont have
and Munching sounds better
thAn all of this ****
That they tell us we need
in stupid matH class

a claw scratches at my throat
I'm trying to speak but it won't go
they're all staring blankly at me
"I don't know" I quivered.
"How does the theme of belonging relate to my life?"
my heart races
my fist clenches
my chest flexes
my fingers tingle
they are all staring at me
I die

It's too early for the past
music takes forever
too bad it's not last
ions and molecules I didn't ask
43 feet above the floor
my ferris wheel of a task
Je n'aime tu
puis mange parce-que j'ai faim
Can we move to creative writing?
public static void main(String [] args )
public String want;
private boolean love?;

My words are failing
My heart is falling
creative
mentality
My teeth are grinding
My hand are clenching
stop telling me
what i need
what i should do
what you beleive i should be
what i believe is wrong?
My lips are trembling
My legs are folding
better
faster
stronger
bigger
Better
Faster
SStronger
BII­gGer
BETTER
FASTER
STROONNGER
BIIGGGEERR




stop

"I Dare You To Call Rachel A Butthead"
"Won't I Get Into Trouble?"
"Nah"
.
.
.
That summer day was one of that last times I saw you,
my cousin's sister, I was never too close to you
Parents afraid of me ending up like you
you never knew better
I could hear the fighting from next door
I never put two and two together
I should have known,
when you were arrested
and Sentenced
I should have known whenever you got high and told me stories
Of high school
But I didn't think,
when I wrote a letter
when I got the news
you never said it would hurt this bad
I Never Knew You Until You Were Gone

This world of ours
Is going to break
Our sores
Are more fragile than we thought
The sorrow that we have cause to ourselves
Is our own fault
****
It's all so corrupt
The way we all think
How are we supposed to succeed
When we have to take all this crap from the peers of us
No more
Done
Stop
Stop acting like children
Like immature middle schoolers
Respect eachother

well i am done
i am done with you
the way you talk
the way you don't care
about me
you *******
go die in a hole
                       l
                       am
                       done
                       with
                       you

A Fly
that's what you are
pesky little irritating low-life
if you were a fly
you would die
in less than a day
less than 24 hours I would be rid of you
with your disease, you spread pain and suffering
that kills
you have infected me
and I have a Fly Swatter
so rid me of your presence
before I rid myself
of you

this is when i shine
when my true self
comes out
when you aren't awake
to stop me
this is when
i am alone with my thoughts
and i
cant
take
it

                            h
                            e
                            l
                            p

as I do sit-ups,
I ask for a mat
Because my spine
Scrapes
On
The
Ground
I eat
So much
but you cant tell
you only see
The
Scrapes
On my spine
"Eating disorder"
Only if eating
more
than my whole family is a disorder
don't judge me
for my
bony arms
and my
flat ***
DONT judge me
for how hard I try
"Where does it all go?"
"Anorexic"
"Skinny *****"
who the **** gives you the authority to make fun of me
I Hate Myself
for the wrong reasons

when the stars collide,
maybe you'll mind your own buissness,
maybe you'll see that I don't want you intruding on my life
how I don't care if you feel as though we have fallen out
you care for me the wrong way
the way that I think is too much
mind your own business
stop creeeping into my life
stop socializing with my friends
just stop
                                                       At the same time though
                                                I miss how you hold me
                                        I miss how you touch me
                                  I miss how you look into my eyes
                         and say
                "It'll all be alright"
So maybe I don't want you to stop
maybe I just want a different love
one that isn't so tough
one that I can depend on
one that shouldn't depend on me so much


                        I Wish You'd Love Me From Farther Away

Sick of you
Sick of him
Sick of the way you like him better than me
how is it that
you
care for him
the man
that I care for too
at the same time
I care for you as well
It
   is
      All
           So
               Sick

he's peering over my shoulder,
watching me type,

hes gazing from across the room,
stop, please
I
Am
Uncomfortable

"be yourself"
"no wait"
"stop"
"too much"

it's so overwhelming
the work
why do you have to make it worse
the pain
it's so hard to deal with
already
why do you feel the need to
make it worse
I try
try
try
so hard
to impress
but you are never satisfied





are you done torturing me yet

I want to do it,
to do what I've always wanted
You wish I wouldn't
because then you would be haunted
because what I would have done
would have
involved a gun

I wish you had time for me
I wish i wasn't forgotten


I wish you didn't worry
I wish you would mind your own business


I wish you liked me
I wish you were mine


I wish i was good
I wish you didn't judge


but most of all I wish all of you
noticed

I picked up the key
I looked at the pencil
I glanced at the razor
I stepped on the glass
                                     And
                                               I
                                                           RESISTED
I Said No



and I lived