I love you as if you were mine
forever, giving you time
I love as if you love me too
however, in this dream, I am not a fool
I love you as my very own soul
keeping you closer than my bones.

I love you as if you aren't mine
always, begging for your time
I love you as  if you didn't love me back
together, me and my pain are very sad
I love you as if you were the cause of my death
I love you as if  you took my last breath.

If I could go back in time
I probably wouldn't do it
because even your hurtful words were like
addictive music
If I could go back in time and save my life
I probably wouldn't save it
because without your love, I know I'd hate it
If I could gamble a way to have a lovely life
I probably wouldn't bet
cause  my life began when we met

slowly dying
yet, I'm knowing
there's so much more to life
yet, I'm stuck in a rut
that without you, it will ****
and the pain lingers day and night


you've done the unthinkable
you've killed me, without taking me whole.