tonight feels heavy
my mindsets deadly
how do I change?
I am tired of playing this game
chasing after something
that I am afraid doesn't exist

I am angry
I am sad, confused

when do the clouds clear?
when will my cherry checks dry?
tears constantly fall from my eyes.

Addies & Coke
The go to for the go through
Fill your nose
Fill your throat
Choose not to feel whats really hurting
Desperately feigning
They are lost between where to go and how to get there
This really isn’t that simple, you see
Watch them struggle and break all the rules

(Beyond the waters)

I look to the sky and cried
but I will be okay
I had thought I had died
but it's just another day

I talked to my father today
as I always do
he said the sun won't stay away
and your time will soon be due

As I stand on the edge of a life
with nowhere to go
In one hand I hold my knife
the other my soul

His words echoed in my head
as I stared across the sea
I know I am not dead
but what's in store for me

I see hope beyond the waters
As the storm withers away
I cherish the words of my fathers
that I will shine another day

I still remember the last time I saw you
and I remember the day I realized
it was really over

but life goes on, as things do
however, I still find myself
thinking about you

I’ve seen other people,
I’m sure you have too
but still, I really, truly do
myss you

Tell me what I have to do
To have atleast a part of you
There isn't much you have to do
To make me fall inlove with you
I'm in too deep
To let go of this idea I have of you and me
I'd do anything to please you
I'd do anything to see you
I wish I could have you to myself
but even if you have someone else
I'd be okay with that.