I want to see the northern lights
but I cannot say why

it is said that sometimes
if conditions are right
you can see them from here

but it never seems to work
for me

even if the sky is clear
I cannot see them
when I am told I might

others say they have seen them here
I don’t think I believe them

some set a camera
on very long exposure
to take their picture

I can’t stare at the sky
for a very long time
all at once
like a camera

maybe I want to see them
because I haven’t seen them before

there are other things I want to see
but never have

like the life I was meant to have
with you

maybe if I’d had
a better camera

comes running through my window

sometimes,
i think i knew you
all my life

and holding the phone in my hand,
maybe, i'll call

or maybe i'll hear
your soft knock at my door
and your sweet
voice
singing along to a song

walt whitman whispers to me
from the nightstand
and i take your letter
from between
your 2 most loved poems
to unfold your words
and unfold the memories
and unfold your love;
while the cat you drew
on page 34
smiles at me

(and, i smile, too)

i knew you
before i loved you
your almond shaped eyes
and the contour of your lips
when you smile

i dreamed of you
before i loved you

and the sun comes running
through my window

and there's a black bird on a telephone wire cawing
and my cat's staring into the fire

where did we go wrong?

Here it is again.
The pain dulls but never goes away
You missed sons-in-law, grandchildren, and now great-grandchildren
Weddings, graduations, our lives but most of all we miss you
Mom is with you now and that helps a little but hurts as well
Today is a painful day but luckily is also my husband's birthday
One of the sons-in-law that you never met
Dear Daddy, I miss you and can't believe it is the fiftieth Father's Day
Today I am fifteen again and tears have to stop until August 23 when we are reminded again of the Daddy we lost and miss

C@rainbowchaser2023

Last night,
when I closed my eyes,
I saw the moon
so full and so bright.
I fell asleep smiling.

At the tilt of the mountains this dawn
The valleys shoot up in mountains
And the glory immortal comes agog
In  treasure without measure spree
Exploding the earth in splendor
As  waters sprouting gold-emerald
And rainbows cavorting in carnivals
Unbundling  glory in glory for glory.