The world stays gray
Leaning towards the light, you say
In silence, your words convey
In mind, body, and soul, you lead the way

The world changes hue, your colors still stay
From gray to yellow, the colors display
In sadness, doubt, and fear, you relay
Guiding us, you show us ideas and portray

here you lay, your body then stays
Your guidance lightens our burdens and makes way
Our future, our past, as a role model you display
Don't lead us astray, for we need your statements today

In the end, this love was worth it.
In my hand, I wrote all the things I want to admit.
I loved you, I hated you, I admired you.
You were mine, but she was yours.

The skeletons in my closet wonder
Unanswered questions, I dare to ask
Haunting my ever existing body, it asks and tells
I answer, they stumble and mumble my name
My humbled body slumbers to its death, waiting to awake once again.

The smiles in child's faces,
The laughter in my mother's eyes,
The bright golden sunrays hitting my dark brown hair,
Everybody painted the streets bright yellow,
But you painted it an unfamiliar ,summery, golden yellow.

The music spirals me unto the room
Moving swiftly, dancing to the beat
Singing softly, whispering loudly
Typing hasty, losing count of time
My heart beats faster, the pressure raises
My thoughts succumb me, and I then resist
Ecstasy fills the room, I continue to dance to the beat of the drums

Blurry visions, clear blue skies
My watery eyes deceive me as I look into the mirror
Distorted faces, mistaken places
Thoughts and questions thinking where and why
Deep breathing, sudden gazes
Looking down these rabbit holes
An endless loop of surprises

You use me, replace me, reuse and repeat
With the words you spread and lies so sweet
Discretely I hid the way you mistreat
I was your greatest victim my downfall made you complete
With your twisted words and cover uped lies
I hope you enjoy my biggest suprise

Be my shadow and I'll be your light
Behold the muse to my artwork, singing with delight
The story behind my writing, this is my final plea
Like footprints in the sand, follow me.

Strolling through atrocious paths
Here I am, Here I am
Day dreaming aftermaths
Here I am, Here I am
Stuck on crossroads
Walking on a tightrope

Chest tightening, she fell.
Eyes watering, she felt shivers on her caramel skin.
A downturned smile, she still laughs.
An everlasting pain, she still stands.

The candle sits still
steadily in the darkness
The cold wind strikes
making the fire and light vanish from existence

Confused and conflicted, I ask myself
Why am I trying so hard to be the best
Old memories then starts to come out the shelf
Alas! Here comes the uninvited guest
Telling me I'm worthless, worse than the rest

My body is like an everlasting mountain full of different mountains and figures
Seeing this wonderful sight, I don't realize it's beauty, no matter its size and figure.
Perhaps, i may need another view in order to appreciate its beauty, may be its own quirks and flaws
But, as I may be doing my best to keep this wonderland, I am grateful for it to be serving me and my wellbeing

Beauty is grace
Beauty is patience
Beauty is timeless
But beauty has its own uniqueness
And Beauty is not defined by one standard
But beauty is in all of us, in our own way

As confusing as it can be
My mind wants to be set free
It maybe as deep as the dark blue sea
Hidden underneath are secrets we all want to see

We once met as strangers
And became friends through time
That quickly turned into lovers
But then ended up as strangers

Alas, the cycle continues...
Until I met you.

An unforseen connections of two souls arise
This was a blessing in disguise
Happiness fills her darkest days
An everlasting leisure comes so fast
In which I never knew would last
Two melodies colliding in harmony
A never ending sound that plays eternally

Till our last tear drop falls to the floor
We shall meet again, my friend.
Farewell

And maybe,
when the time comes,
we can be together again.

Your piercing words full of deceit
Were once from a garden of blossoming flowers
Blinded by these false realities of hope and love
I didn't see it coming
The devil was in front of me all along

Conflicting ideas turn into one
That was me
Identities of one was safely undone
As it shall be
The world was telling her to hold the gun
Wanting to set her free
With each word and action done
You can see
The fight that she had won
It was the key

The calming breeze passes by
Luring me in, soaring so high
Drying my tears in every eye
Looking above to the night sky
Saying goodbye with a bitter lie
Catching my breath as I deny
Perceiving everything in my mind's eye
Wistful belonging as I sigh

And, in an instant, it all stopped
All the minds that have been blocked
Uncovering the veils of illusion was constant
And all suddenly became distant
Feeling stuck inside a box
Wanting to be free, as these chains unlocks