Goodbye, cold and dark, bitter yet sweet year.
May the next not inspire nearly as much fear
Yet in these final days I find myself trying to fight
To make one thing go right with all of my might
So three hundred and sixty five days was not for naught
And there may be meaning in these feelings I caught
The very same that haunt me with the spirit I cannot hold
Yet with the start of January comes the snow and cold
Before Spring can warm me with her warm grasp
But the illness of your love still makes my voice rasp
Partly because the only warmth I experience is that of a fire
That still burns inside my heart for I was not a liar
And every promise of love was not made in vein
Though I’m sure that love made me more insane.
No doubt next summer you will still be vivid in my mind
At the turning of Fall because of you, I will be blind.
However, this year, I saw the leaves fall by her hair
Perhaps I can one day smile and once more stare.
This year ends soon, and she’ll soon be in my past.
Forever wouldn’t have been enough time with her to last.
Goodbye, cold and dark, bitter yet sweet year.
You may have ended well if she was near.

I'm stuck looking at pictures
Trying to forget that it hurts.
I can't accept that you're a memory
And am still hoping you fell for me.
I know you didn't, you're not here,
But I still hold you dear.
I try to send you messages,
Yet the pain refuses to lessen.
I can't get you off of my lonely mind,
So please help, it's you I want to find.
I'd like to bring you back into my life;
Our words might hurt like a knife
But I'd die to see you again.
Without you, my heart is in disdain.
It's as if everything I do reminds me of
A place I'd like to be in the future with my love.
I cannot walk down lonely beaches
Without you stuck in my mind like leeches.
It’s true what they say: love is pain
This love is worth the rain.

It was so much more to me than just a kiss.
It repaired the emptiness left by those I miss.
Maybe we see all of these problems we can’t fix.
Being with you was more effective than a drink I’d mix.
My heart catches on fire around you, my eyes shine
And I think of all of the ways I could try to make you mine.
At two in the morning when the bars are all closing
And I take you home and hug you goodnight, I’ll be composing.
I’ll be writing about how next time I’ll hold you close.
I’ll be strong enough to buy you another rose.
You’re the only one I see, I love you and only you
All the beautiful things in the world and you’re the best view.
In one moment, I’d give you everything.
With you, I am like a king.
So, I’ll love you to the moon and back
And I’ll search for all the words I lack.
Gravity pulling me couldn’t change my mind
Nobody could lead me astray, you’re one of a kind.
If going to that moon was the only way to see you once more.
If I crash into the water, I’ll just wait by the shore.
If satellites fall and stars die, and I would go to the darkness
I would be falling still for you, I promise this regardless.

Much like how long and as quick lightning
Flies across a ghastly and fiery sky
The fight of the heart and mind is frightening.
It's so much easier to fall than fly.
Yet for her my heart still rises high
And my mind sinks into the ground
As it is captivated by bittersweet lies
But truth is the one and only sound
That I am incapable of hearing.
The red found in a heart is the only shade
I am incapable of feeling.
For those sensations will fade
Like a bullet, the emptiness brings pain,
But some loves only end in shame.

Who am I when I am in the dark,
crawling and searching for what I lost
while living in moment-long sparks
because I was far too ignorant to know the cost.
Now, reflecting back, I know that I had the universe.
The sun would never set, the winds always blew,
but nothing but love was strong enough to put me into a curse
as I watched the birds above as they gracefully flew.
All of this was so long ago.
If I could return, without a doubt I would go.