the knife in my back was
yours

the fingerprints
hers

the blood
mine

the sun and the stars
are technically one
in the same—
they all give you light

but only one gives you life

I’ve died so many times.

The ghosts of all the girls I’ve been, linger in photographs and her writing is still inked in diary’s and journals from the past.

I know she is proud of who I am now.

And I look forward to who I will become one day.

Across the forest of dreams my desperate eyes catch a glimmer of light
A glimpse of sun that beams against a path of sweet music that plays my smile
A road I have never seen before
A path I have never felt beneath my feat
The time beneath my feet flys across the forest of dreams to catch my lustful wishes
Ever road touched beneath my feat noise evaporates into singing of birds
Moisture of rain drip of instrument into splash of puddles
Tree leaves rattle of joy
Sunshine cracks through kissing trees
A road I’ve never walk
The weight of my barren shoulders that slides off like a drop of rain on a leaf
Though the roads is cement my feet felt of grass beneath my feet
Though my heart heavy of pain, the weight evaporates into moist of happiness
A road so mysterious but so beautiful that I’ve never pictured within my eyes
A road so painful though filled with happiness tears walks across my cheek
Road of peace I wish I could walk
Road of silence that I wish wasn’t just a dream
A never ending of happiness I wish I felt underneath my feet
A road I wish for to wipe my pain though it was never there
But reality is so cruel against my wishes

I’d hold my breath, I bit my lips, I stayed strong, I didn’t shed a tear, I didn’t break,
You beat me with the power you stood in
The words you said kills my kindness
The lies you told made my hatred
The love one you took from me killed my blooming buds
Though I stayed strong and I wiped my sadness like an umbrella protecting rain from my shoulders
I stayed strong, how long I hold until you broke me,
My tears flooded the city of my kindness
My hatred killed my love
My sadness shattered me into pieces that I can’t count
I picked myself up but my finger tips bleeded
The lies you told to take my love
To take my life
To break me in pieces
To **** my dreams
To take what I worked for in life
You took without a thought
Without a care
Without a blink
The lie you told that made me break
That made me a monster
The monster that started the games you played
The game you thought you won
A game you should have never started
But you didn’t care of what you’ve done. You didn’t care