a moments
sigh,

as your
breath breathes.
in and
against
my chest.

we are
like sand
and shore
that have
been carved
and shaped
by one another
into this
moment over
thousand
of years.

but now
to be with
you here
tonight,

is a
testimony
that
we have
always
been together.

before time
before woman
and man.

and yet
now as you
surrender
before me
husband and
wife,

it is
certain and
true to
the stars
that nothing
in this
universe will
ever be
as great

again.

nothing left
to hide
nothing left
to give,

life and love
have stripped
and mined it
all away
from me,

and time
has consumed.
all the
tidbits  of
me that
might at
one time
or another
been yummy
or satisfying,

to her or
them or
whatever.

and still
almost
not by choice
have all
the pieces
in my life
still miraculously
fallen in
together

to this.

I love you.

forget me not
in your
shadowed
eyes.

the confessions
are between
you and your
God tonight.

and as
you play
your part
in your
shadow dances.

be not afraid
just be
yourself,

it was
always your
greatest
gift
to me.

and the
sting
that awaits.
you,


be assured.
all of
your debts
in this
world have
been fully
paid.

for it
is now
I who will
be the
lonely
pauper
without

you.

a place
to rest
my soul,

and be
quiet inside
my heart.

and watch
the madness
of this world
run by.

and over
in the
corner
your smile
always puts
me at ease.

and the
morning runs
deep
behind
your eyes.

and for
the forgiveness
of our

regrets in
my wildest
dreams I
know you
will always
be the
biggest part
of me.

along this
shore that
I have seen
a million times
before.

and I still
couldn't tell
you what
my childish
loves were
for.

seemingly a
step forward
and then a trip
and I fall
there steps
back.

always having
someone cling
far too
hard to me,

and those that
threw me
away far
too soon.

no pearl
here.
just all
the agitation
and pain.

in my
gut,
inside
and out
of my heart.

and those echos
and those
screams
that live
with me
here,

over and
over

again.

and to
the tide
I sing
take me
home
take me
home

tonight.

never pretending
catching the
reflection of
each of
your heart beats
entwined
with mine.

and the
destination is
always the
same,

a glimpse
of heaven,

and this
moment of
everything
in your

eyes
tonight.

Indeed if
I could say
hello to
you again,

a first time,
a first smile
a first laugh

a first skip
of my heart.

no questions
asked
only forgiveness
that it
took me
so long
to walk
and dream
with you.

and see
the gentle
yet supple
corners of
your face.

and what
would I
give
and what
would my
life be....

without this
first chance
to say

for a
million times
over and over
again

hello.

Caterpillar
baby
watching
changing
right before
my eyes,

some shedding
shells,
some blooming
life never
to be recognized
again.

but in  
a moment
everything
is life
and endless
possibilities.

like the
moment I
saw my
first baby's

eyes.

like the
first moment
I fell
inside her
mothers
eyes.

and changed
forever...

from the
moment
of the
birth of
the first
threads
of my
breaths,

bleeding
into the
colors of
life.

I was
young
yet pure,

I was
then a
teenager
and wild
I was for
a moment
a young adult
sewing oats,

between the
moments
stolen in
your young
girl smile

and then
the sun
changed
the colors
of my bright
rainbow
hues,

and I
began to
fade into
this color
of white.

gently tattered.
and worn.

from life's
battles and
tender night
embraces...

till this
moment with
you where
each and
every night

you danced to
my thoughts
and threads
unraveling,

and with  you
still wrapped
.
with my love
and soul
around you.

until we
came to this
moment now
before us

the first
morning
without light

and the next
moment
that I

may die
with you.....

we were
puzzle pieces
that never
quite fit .

even now
many years
later and
a few
ruff edges
torn and
broken off,


edges
that still
reach out
and cut
and bleed
our heart,

fresh flesh
for the taking.

but still
at night I
dance clumsily
in my head
with you,

rarely making
eye contact,

breaking
emotional toes
and feelings
like they were
just peanuts
on a cheap
back water
bar floor.

and this is
all now
that is
left of us.

the puzzle
dance,

a beginning
that will
never end.

Your the
snowflake
looking for
redemption
as you
circle swirl
from the
ceiling of
this black
night,

and as
you settle.
upon my face

and slowly
melt upon
the corners
of my
mouth,

I stand
and
I wish
I was

kissing
you.

nothing to
say,

to the reflection
of your
picture
in my
shattered
hearts window.

thoughts and
feelings all
out of
bounds.

prayers
flying broken
circles
around  the
memory of
your angel
eyes.

and my
soul is
blind without
you here.

like sun
melting snow,

you were only
here for
far
too short
\
a time.

My heart
is not broken
or scared,

it is still
open and
growing
and fertile
to
everything
love has
to offer
and teach.

it is just that
when you left
you took
a piece
of it.

and now
50 years
later or
so.

I realize
that I  
never will
have
that piece
again....

My dreams
see all
of the
spaces inside
you,

and my
thoughts rejoice
in every
thought of
you that
they find.

your eyes
full of
stars.

and your
whispers of
moments
that seem
to last
forever
in your
smile.

and each
morning
I am
the greater
because
of you.

and each
evening
when you
leave I
know too

that the
world is
something
less.

You have
always been
to me
a beat
of a
moment,

the pause
of my heart.

the break of
first light
of dawn's
quiet offering.

and it
is just
with a hello
that you
weave your
magic.

and words
are simply
out done.

by your
angel eyes
by your
quiet touch

this morning.

Again you
have painted
my morning
with the beauty
of your eyes,

and am
rich beyond
life's words.

My thoughts
fall to you,
like leaves
from a
old stick
tree in
the wind.

my heart
buried
beneath your
feet ,

to willingly
lie and
whisper to
these hills.

and my
voice can
only be
heard by
you.

and in
the wonder
of this universe,

it is
just so.

Tonight,

Let me
lie down
upon your
tender belly
and look
up and sky
and connect
the stars
in the shapes
of animal *******
cookies,

then taste
them one
by one
upon your
lips,

in one of
our finest
deserts
of life.

let me chase
fire flies
across this
night,

without anyone
futures to
decide.

opening
our eyes
to

and bend of
all our love
and truth
in this
moment.

let me
pray like
crazy that
I might
never have
to close
my eyes,

and just
rejoice in
this moment
of seeing
you.

let me
simply lie
naked and
melt under
your canopy
smile

tonight.

The everything
of you
is intoxicating,

like rain falling
cold upon
you face
on a holy
Sunday
morning.

the song
of the world
when it
is around
you,

is unlike
anything that
I have heard
before.

a survivor
of a different
time,

a place where
people didn't
run and hide
from their
emotions.

and now
my heart
stands naked
before you.,

and in
this moment
bring me
your redemption
when you
come deep
and full,

under this
stable of
stars tonight.

I will
find you.

and never
forget this
moment again.

I cannot
pretend.

Since the
moment of
my existence,

I have come
danced a
playful child
to this moment
of you.

been molded
to this vision
of us,

and I
hope somewhere
inside your
heart you
will always
keep a
a record
of me.

I never knew
what the seasons
of my life
were without
you.

these walls
and doors
of our silence
to the night
no longer
define us,

and what
breaches
forever is
the laughter
of your
smile,
and your
autumn hair
across my
face in
this moment.

and time falls
away from
me,

and the wind
carries me

a seed to
this wind
to be
buried deep,

inside your
sighs

tonight.

Last night
my thoughts
of you were
playing peek a boo
behind the
moon,

driving up 101
my brakes
to stop
me from
feeling this
way,

a million
light years
from my
heart.

and this
morning
I saw you
at work at
9;02 A.M.,

and if
I could
I would
go to that
place everyday
for the rest
of my life.

my fortunes
have fallen now
to you..

and I am
the fruit
upon your
vine.

and while
this night
baths
me in
it's light

I pray this
forever moment
of you

never ends.

Be not afraid
of the dark
anymore.

and the
whisper that
you sometimes
here at
night.

it is
me.

and the
storm that
comes
to cleanse us
into the
white.

we are
brave and
wise to
one another

and in
this life
I will not stir
in slumber
without you
ever again.

I used to
be able
to look
into my
morning
mirror,

and not
give another
thought to
this moment
or the next.

But now with
with you
I realize
all the
moments are
connected,

and from
this moment
to the next,

free fall
is not a
option but
it is the really
of the way I
feel every time
I look into
your eyes.

and like
the morning flowers
seeing the
suns first
morning
light

I bend to
you.

your smile
captures
everything
that is young
and pure
in this
morning
light.

and the
day begins
to celebrate
with your
smile.

and I
just wander
back and
forth across
your eyes.

and the universe
is right before
me and it
is glorious.

and the
sky willing
bends
to you
as I,

as this
eternity
and as this
day begins

you are
everything..

since my
morning smile
has awaken
in your eyes,

my heart has
rolled
over on it's
belly
to expose
it's tender
side to you.

and hopefully
this will
someday be
how it has
always been.

you are here
so full and
simple in these
poems that
I write
to you.

and I
know that
you know
it.

it is
the moment
in time
that we
own,

and now
the hard
places in
my life
quietly in
the black
still of night
melt away

with a simple
hello and

back again.

we embrace
this sky
like two
birds  taking

flight.

could you
take all of smiles
inside your
heart and give
them to me
everyday of
forever?

could I catch
every
reflection
of light
running their
across your
angel eyes
like sparks
of fire?

and the
deep breaths that
you take
can I slumber
deep inside them
and never
awake?

could I
take you
with me every
where that
I go.

and as the
pages in
my life keep
turning,

you will
always be there
with me,

from this  life

to the next.

Magic is
a light that
your eyes
are all to
familiar
with.

It dances there
in you
eyes when
you greet me
each morning.

and everything
about you
improves
everything
about me.

and what failures
that have become
are forgotten
in your laugh

that only echos
with truth and
music
to my ears.

who ever thought
"good morning"

could ever become
a anthem
to my day....

My eyes fall
willing to you,

like a small child
finding grace.

you touch
me in the places
that long
ago have
been broken,

Places inside me
grown weary
and vacant
from hope
or salvation.

and then the sun
comes each day
within your smile,

and joy comes
with the
sound of
your angelic
voice.

and as I hear it
echo throughout
my day,

it moves me
like waves
kissing the
bottom of
the sky

like stars
flying to
elope over
this harvest
moon

tonight..

From the
moment I
caught your
runaway smile,

I knew love
must of kissed you
in this Sunday
morning light.

everything
about you
was fireworks
on a fourth of
July evening,

and nothing
was taken for
granted in
you laugh.

you are
a brightener
of days.

the first
sigh of
angels...

and the
world and
I are so
much
greater
for it...

And my prayers
reach from
one of
your eyes
to the next.

and I see your
reflection in
every morning
dawn.

your life
blossoming before
my ancient
eyes.

and though
time is on
your side,

one side or
the other I
will always
be with you.

to wish you
well to dance
with you
on your
wedding day.

with you
I will always
have least
one more
thing to
say.

a laugh or
a quiet smile.

around the
moon and
back again
are my thoughts
for you.

you have
always been
an inspiration
in my life.

and though
life is
a moment ,

and then that
moment is
gone.

I will
carry you
with me.

and we
will carry on,

like the night
the light
of it's silver
stars.

and I just
wanted to
give you
this thought
of you tonight.

I dream
the best
for you.

When I close
my eyes,
something about
you is
always
there.

watching you
still in
a moment
and then you
suddenly are
everything.

laughter defined
like a lightening
strike in
a colorado
mountain storm,

or a tender
smile that
you throw
across a room,

I mean hell
who could
ever forget
a moment
of you.

and as
the sun rises
and sets
in your
eyes,

beginnings and
endings of
dreams of
black and blue.

and your runaway
smile runs across
my eyes,

bound for
nowhere in
particular.

you capture
my thoughts
like a bird
on a breeze.

and you
take me

away....

And your
heart seeps out
into the
ground.

only to
be buried
cold by
this moment.

buried by
all of the
fragments of
news and
pieces of
you,

loves won
loves lost.
love never
given,

love never
received.

and in
this tragic
glimpse of
time,

now
you must
face the
honesty
of you.

standing on
a breach
of echos
of times
that you thought
you heard
I love you,

and then
you almost
answered
"I love you
back".

and now
with this
sickness that
questions
and grips
our very
lives,

thank God I
I know that
I am exactly
where I
was meant
to be.

and I love
my wife
like a
dream come
true.

and I hope
it is that
way with
all of
you.

cause one
heart was
never meant
to go
through all
of this

alone.

and everything
in her eyes
and the reflection
in mine,

is the story
of our lives,

and at
night,

the quiet
slumber
is that of
clouds slowly
moving through
the sky
on a rainy
night.

and  in
our sleep
and in
our dreams her
hand always
seeks to
hold mine,

and never
do we
wake.

and in morning
her kiss is
deeper still.

and today
in the moments
we are apart,

are all the
moments in
my life
that I
will only
miss her
more.

and a hundred
times today
I will look
up to the sky

and say,

"she married me
she married me"

and for
that Lord
I will be

forever blessed.

The moment
that I
risked this
runaway
feeling  
in your
eyes,

was the
moment that
I knew
I could
never go
home
again.

flower pulled
from the
darkened
ground,

naked
and afraid
lying across
your
heart.

more question
than destiny,

lover gone
bad.

falling star
burning my
eyes
into white,

and now
you don't
even think of
me anymore.

and I am
so much less
the man
for it.

and my
soul just
at the
thought of
you

bleeds out
all over
again.

to the
still
of this
night.

alone.

In my dream
it was coming
on Christmas,

it was
the birth
of a journey
unlike anything
that I
had ever
been on
before.

and it
was the
first time
for feelings
that I
had never
felt before.

and I knew
it was you
in my heart,

from the
first moment
that I saw
you.

something definite
magically defined
like silver stars
that dance on
the blackest
sky on
a chill
winter's night.

and ask nothing
of the sky
but a view.

a soft and
tender kiss
that can
never be forgotten.

and as
I hold
you now,

I still
witness the
stars dancing
in your
eyes,

in this life
that has become
our grace.

in the
dreams that
I have found
my true love

in the
universe
that I have
found in

you.

in the
silence of
a tender
smile

upon your
face.

tonight.

With our love
what I have
found and what I
have left
behind,

we are
the sum total
of everything
in my
universe.

that night
you walked
away in
shadows
like a stray
alley cat off
to look for
a tasty morsel.

and I was all
for the less
for it,

and you
have wandered
in and
out of
half empty
beds every since,

even back into
mine now
and then.

drunk in
the night
wondering
when anything
good might
come out
of this.

and now
30 years
of our love
has left
you,

and the color
of your
amber eyes
have gone
dark.

but you were
a child once,

and then
you grew
it all away
to runaway
from all
consequences.

and my arms
that just
wanted to
hold you.

and love.

now  time
is not
your friend
anymore

and our love
has left
your bones
cold and
old.

and what
will become
of you..

only God
surely knows.

Through the
marrow of
my bones
I do love
you,

where it
is the purest
white.

in the
heart of
the deepest
black night
do I see
you,

and surrender
to your black
smoked eyes.

and as you
lie open
and waiting.

for the
taste of
us.

I feel it.

and wonderland
is not for
children
anymore..

we have become
the sunrise
and the sunset
in our
lives.

the Romeo
and Juliet
of the dreams
tucked
underneath
our bedroom
pillows.

nothing
reminds me
of my life
before you.

you have
changed all
of that.

we carve
the rivers
edge ,

and forever is
just up ahead
within reach,

of our first kiss

tonight.

And she
said "yes!"

she will
marry me,

and it
entirely changed
the apex of
my life's point
of view.

and now there
were two.

it was like
jumping off
a cliff and
landing on
only a deep
ocean sky.

and love was all
we knew ,

and
my dreams
were all we
lived.

together in
everything that
we did.

and "I love you
became our
point of view.

it was
the perfect timing
of the universe.

when

I asked
her to marry me

and she "said Yes"

Love me
naked beyond
flesh or bone,

trace your
fairytale dreams
to memory upon
my lips,

runaway your
passion and lust
across my eyes,

and never
let the sun
run to retire.

and deep inside
our eyes
we will define
our destiny,

and we
will never
let each other go.

and as all
of your love
falls out
of time..

nothing will
be left
but you and I.

so let me
be your
more,

and never
be satisfied
with less.

to be young
to die old
inside  your
angel eyes

and sing.

caught a smile
of you in
my mind today,

and it was
like my last
memory of
you,

was happening
right before
my eyes.

and everything
in life
was pure,

and  the kiss
upon your
lips was
just for
me.

and all
my souls
seasons
fell into
one,

and the
clouds in
the sky
were everything
in my eyes.

and you
in my
heart.

and love
was old
and it was
new.

and my soul
was sky
and you took
me with you.

today and
all of
our days
that might
follow.

and it was
easy to
see everything
in me

is you...

I am older now,
a little less
blind,

a little
bit wiser
to your
gypsey smile,

and I will not
ever fall
into it
again.

you never
had a plan
for me,

not the kind
that would
really last.

a kitten playing
with a ball
of yarn
and my heart
will never
recover again.

it will
just have
to live
with it's scratches
of valor
of loving you.

and such are
my days for
you,

you come in
and out of
them like sunlight
dancing naked
through a
tree.

time has no
reference to you,
and as all
of these
years pass,

I have come
to realize
some of the
things that
I gave you
I can never
get back.

but they call
to me from
now and
then,

like rainbows after
a storm.

or echos
of lost love
that bring
harmony to
my ears.

and so
I sit here
again.

and only you
and I know
why.

It was the
moment that
they were
going to
roll me into
surgery,

and it
was perfect
with all
of my loved
ones sitting
there.

my next
moments
in God's
hands
like
a sunrise
or a sunset.

and it was
not odd
what I thought
about most,

and of course
my wife it
was you,

I didn't want
to see you
cry my intentions
for you
were only
the best.

but there
we were
in tears
without nothing
being said.

and I thank
God for
that moment
as well.

for the 26 years
in the
making of
that moment,

when I
truly realized
that live
or die

we will never
reach our
end.

Your shadow
follows
behind you like
a prisoner
of your
past.

your eyes
have become
roses that
are slowly
dying..

and all
of my words
cannot help
her in
these nights,

where she
hides behind
these empty
walls.

at first light
of marriage
she was
ready to
set the
world on
fire.

put now
her fortunes
are just
empty pockets
of fate
buried deep in
her old
favorite jeans.

too young
too stupid,

in love
or whatever
you call
it at eighteen
years of age.

and I
send her
kisses and
quiet whispers,

that at twenty-eight
she might
grow to
understand.

that at
thirty eight
my dreams
might cover
her heart
like a
blanket.

and then she
will realize
that "yes,

I loved her
too."

In the
black and
white
photographs
of you
that I keep
deep inside
my mind.

I keep
them in view
in everything
that I do.

and someday
there will
be one
of you
and I.

and I will
remember
that moment
as if I
had lived
it a hundred
years or
more.

no illusions
or past lovers
to remember.

no broken
hearts or
dreams
to heal.

you are
my moment
when everything
is free,

and true

and under
a billion stars
at night,

your love
will bathe
me,

and your love
will call me
from the
depths
of my soul.

and I am
certain
that for
forever
I will see
a fairy tale,

there awaiting
me in your
eyes.

where angels
soar and
I am a child
of these
nights

no longer
afraid of
the black

or the
loneliness
here

without you.

and in
his eyes tonight
you will lie
but he doesn't
see you.

under the
cover of night
I am the
lightening strike
just outside
your window.

and the
muscle twitch
between your
thighs
that is me
as well.

in these
fairy tale dreams
of us.

and the rubies
I could
give you,
for you
to hang
around your
neck,

and the
whispers I
could share
with you,

before the
night expires
to the light.

and you would
taste of me
and me
of you
everywhere.

and though
death beckons
me in
these days,

I am far
richer for
having these
dreams at least
once.

and not
die the
pauper in
God's eyes.

I know
there is a
sadness in
your loveliness,

and that
sometimes
you reach out
into the night
hoping your
dreams
might last
forever
but you know
that they
never will.

and some
nights
my body rests
back to
back with
yours and we
talk
long
deep
into the night.

we have become
best of  friends
through
the blessing
and falls
of time.

and in
your eyes
I have
found the
greatest peace
that I have
ever known.

and sitting
under exploding stars
tonight ,
I can
feel everything
inside me
so much
more.

perhaps it
was our
first kiss
so simple and
perfect.

that we
knew

and we
never said
a word,

and everything
in our
hearts got
rearranged,

and from
that one moment
that we met
under  the
universe.

the night

it set us free.

For awhile
it will cloak
you in
your darkest
secrets.

you and him
vows
broken
empty beds
not slept in.

cocoon yourself
in new
dreams and
slivers
of the
old you
you used
to be,

when you
were a child
and the
universe was
yours and
you didn't
have to share
it with
anyone else.

and from
the cocoon you
will blossom,

and his sweat
will be long
ago dried
upon your
body.

and you
will dream
upon new
stars and
your heart
will echo
new feelings
of new
dreams breaking
through.

and the beauty
in your eyes
will return
again.

and I will
always be
there  to see
you to
smile in
return.

the fountain
of my youth
was always
you,

we were just born
lifetimes
apart.

but still
I am
always here
for you.

so bring
your light
into your
darkness..

the universe
it waits
for you.

Runaway and
bury your body
under me
in the rain,

and lick
and quench
your thirst off
heaven's  water
running
off of
my neck

and memorize our
kisses deep
and wet,

until you
are unable
to feel
the rain
anymore

and our tongues
become weak
from full
pleasure,

then tell
me your
secrets and
show me
all of
your secret
places in
the dark,

and sing
to me
your cardinal
sighs and
moans of
love.

show me
everything,
hold nothing
back,

this is
the moment
that the
universe
has made us
perfect for.

like the sun
raising over
the horizon.

and never
looking back.

It is the
feeling of your
toes to the
back of my
legs
that cases me
to beg for
your adoration
and obedience.

and I
memorize that
moment
and carry it
with me
throughout
the remains
of my day.

and our love
is a river
that runs so
long and so
deep that it
carries us
away.

and no
matter how
we try
you always
leave each other
weak in
our knees.

and your
lips are
full and swollen
from deep
kisses from
the night
before.

and the
morning before
and the morning
before that...

carry me
gypsey stranger

my soul is
ready to
bleed for
you

and dance like
naked banshees
in the night.

so  again

carry me
carry me

away.

for me
I know there
is a fairy tale
ending in
your eyes,

a soul's
balance,

and a
peace and
harmony that
I have
never known.

and in the
quiet whispers
in the
deepest
night when
you open
to me and
reveal all
that you have
inside.

naked to naked
eyes to eyes,

in this
forever world
that lies
inside your
once in
a lifetime
dreams.

I dream of
you can
you feel
me.?

it is
a minute past
one in
the morning
I taste you

do you
taste me

too?

you lie
across your bed
like an angel
just laid.

and all
debts owed
to each other
are paid
in full
without
regrets.

and though I
may never
be  the dream
in your
eyes again.

our desperate
hearts were
true and full
till mornings
light,

and I could
not love you
more,

without names
of husband
and wife.

and though
we have come to
age past
one another
far too
long ago.

still you
bless my evening
when you
come to
see my eyes
like no one
ever has.

all bets
in life are
off.

and naked
is my love
to you.

in this fairy
tale moment
so clear in
black and
white.

with you.

Be patient
mend in
this time
of your
glory.

the scabs
on your
heart will
fall away
in pieces
each with
a different
story of
how it
was with
him.

be strong
endure,

let the
river of
faith inside
you take
it's course,

and like
the caterpillar
at first sight
has nothing in
common with
a cocoon and
the cocoon
has nothing to

do with a
butterfly,

again you
will break
through and
learn to fly.

and your
love will
be deeper
and your kisses
will be
sweeter,

and I will
stand on
the ground and
look up
and applaud'
you.

for my heart
too is on
this journey,

for some
reason God
has made
it this way.

and as
I prayed
for you and your
children this
morning,

I know he
is always
right...