everyone had left you.
left you to die,
in knotted veins
oozing blood
among ***** chains

in the condition you’re in,
maybe its better to die.


that decease.


they left me.
did they, really?

teeth bite into the veins
but the blood didn’t spill anymore
i looked at you

it’s been years,
years of grief
if you keep silent,
how would people know?

did they really left you?

silent, but not violent.

mother gave her life to me
gave me her hugs,
so i could feel her heartbeat

she held me close,
and whispered my name,
like a promise.

all this went away
with a few words


…


blank, my face.


i never would have thought

i never would have thought.

im weightless in the sea

i try to swim, swim back

back to the flowers,
the footsteps

to the shore

but i chose to drown
it’s my fault i’m weightless

like jellyfish
i glow in the sea
swimming, free

take a breath
but you chose death

looked like immense pain,
but it was just the desperate pleading for me to stay

you speak,
and more cracks appear

through my face
my lungs
my heart

you speak.
‘you wanted me to face my truth?’
‘so why don’t you face YOURS?’

my body broke.
i am truly broken without them

an obsession
so deep to care
fireworks blast into the sky
snapping the our reality with theirs

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oh boy!

it’s christmas eve
and i remember my house
full of people
my family

when i left,
i didn’t know my family no more
i know their names
i recognize their faces
yet i don’t know them
no more.

it’s christmas eve
a time so special
yet so,
so lonely.