She tried to fade by holding her breath,
But yet he rescued her with a laugh.
He'd awoken a fire, set her soul ablaze...
To give her faith that she was the light that could ***** out darkness.
The kind that plagues the bones.

But what did she know, those stories in her head were so familiar.
It's like a merry go round of faded images with rewritten captions,
That covay fallacies all of which were imaginary.

Her bones tainted, faith shattered but she still fought for love.
His heart sang a song that only she could hear.
It's a lesson that within pain is love and deeper understanding.
Life is truly the pursuit of love, where you find happiness you find the thing you love.

Deflated like the air mattress below me;
a haze was spinning within my head.
Inhale... exhale it said,
come closer if you will.
For this night is vacant and lonesome,
come give me a thrill.

I battled within my sheets,
for space with my anxiety to sleep.
Turned to counting rhythm and beat
of the broken teenagers on the street.

Every day is like another challenge
Another chance to survive
We boast and gloat
Off the little we know
You discover more when you are open
With no expectations of what’s to be
Until you develop your own morals
You unfurl your tainted schemes
Ruin your reputation
There is no much you've failed to seek
Oh darling
Your intentions pure
Not pure enough to save the tainted ground in which you step
I can tell you’re upset
About the outcomes of the dreams
May you weep in sorrow?
Even though tomorrow
Holds another key
To another door
To another world of opportunity
If only you’re crusted eyes could see
The potential of passion
Within the being
Let your veins bleed out the poison
Your induced drug like reality
Binging on sweet alcohol and smoking down your regrets
But are they regrets? Or disappointments of who you are
We see those nights reflect in the mirror
The grim look upon your young face
The crinkle marks faded where your smile used to be
Running from fears and broken hearts
Sitting in the rain
Cold, worn and rejected
When even turned up in the dirt
They still pick for more
I’m fearful to die alone
To fade unnoticed
To have loved is to have felt great pain
To have lived is to have gained and lost
When the day is old and you lay to rest your head
Don’t be troubled by your past
Or fear the unknown
For one day we will stumble upon
The greatest gift
Unconditional love and affection

I see myself counting the days
Although i dont know when ill return
These endless days turn into endless nights
Sunsets, sunrise
Soil stains and receeds in the cracks of my palm
Sunkissed cheeks,
Cigar burning my chapped lips
I came here by choice
I came here by chance
No one to catch me as I stumble
As I struggle to catch a grip
No one to carry the weight...
But my bones

Dehydrated veins
Compromised soul
A determination to conquor
Not the land but the person within

Im no hopeless wanderer
Just a lonesome forester

New moon
paves a way through darkness
washed up by waves of years past
you don't see the truth until you stand beside your shoes
nurture your passions
set down the bottle
set fire to your addictions
wake up sober
look in the mirror
be honest
you no longer need to run and pretend
mend your heart strings
come to terms with your weakness
tomorrow is another day to try again

Don't cry tears of shame,
you'll never be what they dreamed of
you'll never be the label they portray you as
you'll never meet their expectations

I know your tired of being on stage
under the spotlight
drowning in fits of rage
back and forth, you caged animal
you'll never go far they said
we will see you in 10 years
homeless, helpless, a nowhere dread on society

But why must everyone lie to me
tell me it is now or never to choose tomorrow
why focus on something i can not yet grasp
why try to see through a fogged mask of what might be

My visions go on forever, as far as the eye can see
my words flow endless on and on like the waves of the Baltic sea
unrelenting, yet  sometimes calm, dark yet light
it is all a ******* mystery

Eyes wide open but mind is still foggy
the world is in carnage yet it still spins and twirls
sometime I wonder what is everyone after
what do they live for?

Why focus on me when you can focus on you
why judge my direction when you are lost too
why cloud my perception with what I could be
why just not let me be me
why don't you just worry about you and I will worry about me
I am still wrapped up in youthful folly
driven by what ifs and maybes
Still trying to peel off the skin you made for me

Every day is like another challenge
Another chance to survive
We boast and gloat
Off the little we know
You discover more when you are open
With no expectations of what’s to be
Until you develop your own morals
You unfurl your tainted schemes
Ruin your reputation
There is no much you’ve failed to seek
Oh darling
Your intentions pure
Not pure enough to save the tainted ground in which you step
I can tell you’re upset
About the outcomes of the dreams
May you weep in sorrow?
Even though tomorrow
Holds another key
To another door
To another world of opportunity
If only you’re crusted eyes could see
The potential of passion
Within the being
Let your veins bleed out the poison
Your induced drug like reality
Binging on sweet alcohol and smoking down your regrets
But are they regrets? Or disappointments of who you are
We see those nights reflect in the mirror
The grim look upon your young face
The crinkle marks faded where your smile used to be
Running from fears and broken hearts
Sitting in the rain
Cold, worn and rejected
When even turned up in the dirt
They still pick for more
I’m fearful to die alone
To fade unnoticed
To have loved is to have felt great pain
To have lived is to have gained and lost
When the day is old and you lay to rest your head
Don’t be troubled by your past
Or fear the unknown
For one day we will stumble upon
The greatest gift
Unconditional love and affection

There is beauty in the most troubled souls
there is life in the sky above
the roots of growth beneath our feet
the today that lays at the end of the paths we meet
the meaning we suckle from every defeat
the hope that lingers in the air we breathe
the love that is held within every being we greet
here is to the moment we have yet to share
to the invisable strings that bring us closer together
here I lay shifted as the clouds that crumble above our heads
memories that are infused with every coffee I drink
thoughts that guide every dance I make
the flaws deep within my soul or upon the flesh that covers my bones
defines the fact that I am human
a person with a past, future, and a now

There is beauty in the most troubled souls
there is life in the sky above
the roots of growth beneath our feet
the today that lays at the end of the paths we meet
the meaning we suckle from every defeat
the hope that lingers in the air we breathe
the love that is held within every being we greet
here is to the moment we have yet to share
to the invisable strings that bring us closer together
here I lay shifted as the clouds that crumble above our heads
memories that are infused with every coffee I drink
thoughts that guide every dance I make
the flaws deep within my soul or upon the flesh that covers my bones
defines the fact that I am human
a person with a past, future, and a now

In the midst of night
Comes the hail of rain
The fog wallows in the atmosphere
how I wish you were here...

These days are short but feel so long
Within the maze of trees, I carry on
Im proud of who I am and what I do
Ive compromised
Lived within a veil of sorrow
Gave in to what could be
Instead of what is

Whos there to say that love cant find a way
My love id give anything
To  see your face
To lay beside you with grace
But for now we'll wait

For I have dreams to chase and as do you
But soon my love, our fingertips will collide
And all our worries will have subsided
I have no doubts with you
Because you have shown me what love is

In the end when your in love with someone
No distance imaginable can seperate the connection
Because when in love
You are two free beings within one entity
Whether I am looking at the stars or wandering the forest i know that i am not alone
Because somewhere out there in the world your there and always will be
It is just a matter of time before we      
Are together again

empty notebooks
waiting to bare the weight of thoughts
sunsets
i lay parellel with the horizon
shifting positions
as the dawn fades to black and blue
where stars divide two worlds with a milky line
where are you tonight

pause
were in fastforward
im feeling ill
the life I lead is passing by me
although I am standing still
pause tomorrow
pause today
pause this moment
darling stay

laughter fills in the gaps
of silence that was left
wrinkled quits keep company
in the space beside my head
where a soul once lingered beneath the sheets
is nothing but a fond memory

the bed is empty
try to fill it with foreign bodies
when my skin graces theirs
its cold
their eyes so desolate...
where's the love I used to know?
this heart of mine is vacant
a quick one, then they go,
I am left there tired
feeling used and old...
where's the love I used to know?

he tenderly sips whiskey
as the love creeps away with the light of the day
awakens the night of decay
inches upon inches of white
frosted window seal
the flicker of the lantern
the ****** appeal of a light so warm
reflecting upon aging skin
so fragile and worn
the sheets musky
blue eyes staggered
still praying to god for gift he has yet to reap
still sowing a life, the scars so deep
down the hatch rolls the whiskey
singing songs of sorrow
as he closes his eyes
with his silent breath rises tomorrow...