I don't think about it much
But
You really do care.
I don't think I try nearly as hard
And that makes me sad
But I just want to say
You make me happy

I'm officially crazy
Both about you
And otherwise

A cheap shot
Kicked where it hurts
Is exactly what this feels like
Stabbed in the back
And in the front
Images that make me see red
To forget and forgive
I'm so angry
But I can't let it out
Don't want to hurt those who I care
About
I don't know who I blame
Maybe myself
I'll put these feelings away on the shelf
In some drawer
Lose them
And try to be selfless

Be hopeful
Because that smile
Might be right around the corner.
All you have to do is
Find it.

I have nothing to say
Nothing to write
Nothing to feel
No, not anymore.
Everything has changed
My eyes are open
And I want to close them
But what I've seen can never leave

I see the cycle
And well, it is terrible
When will this crap end?

The day gets worse
I am angry for some reasons
Guilty for others
And my optimism for later is gone
I hate this

I don't cry often, but
I feel too close